can I cry now?
Horrible night. Nothing major, just a bunch of small things like putting coffee urns under the Fetco with the valve still open... 3 TIMES. That, and I've pretty much been totally scatterbrained since 8pm, which does NOT help when you're trying to close. I felt I was running myself ragged, and I know I was rubbing Tia's nerves raw.
I'm not sure what it is when I close with Tia. I never have issues closing with Cheyne, and I don't think I do with Janna. I think it's that I try to be the "perfect closer" when we're working together, and I try to be super-focused on stuff that I miss simple things, like taking out the trash. I just can't seem to relax around her for some reason.
And then, I go to the store to get milk, and it's closed. As was the nearby 24-hr convenience store, oddly.
So I've gotta drive all the way back to Bay Area to get milk.
Sooo yeah, now I'm all feeling emotionally drained and vulnerable. Time like this I wanna break down and escape everything somehow. Doesn't happen often at all, but when it does it hits hard. The late hour doesn't help.
What keeps me going when I'm like this, is that I figure it can only get better from here.
Last night was fun, too.
I'm not sure what it is when I close with Tia. I never have issues closing with Cheyne, and I don't think I do with Janna. I think it's that I try to be the "perfect closer" when we're working together, and I try to be super-focused on stuff that I miss simple things, like taking out the trash. I just can't seem to relax around her for some reason.
And then, I go to the store to get milk, and it's closed. As was the nearby 24-hr convenience store, oddly.
So I've gotta drive all the way back to Bay Area to get milk.
Sooo yeah, now I'm all feeling emotionally drained and vulnerable. Time like this I wanna break down and escape everything somehow. Doesn't happen often at all, but when it does it hits hard. The late hour doesn't help.
What keeps me going when I'm like this, is that I figure it can only get better from here.
Last night was fun, too.