another quizzy....stolen from James this time =P
I'm a quiz-stealin fool!!
1. your full name? Julia Anne Lewis
2. grandparents' first names? Dorothy and Julius (father; no, I wasn't named after my grandfather....) and Mary and Philip (mom)
3. what songs do you sing in the shower? anything and everything =D
4. what did you fear was going to get you at night as a child? A monster I knew personally....
5. when and why did you last vomit? i really don't think i want to remember....
6. whats in your pockets right now? lipsmackers, buss pass, money and salt packets.
7. what color are your bedroom walls? this dirty old greyish-white. Will soon be blood red though!!
8. last thing that made you laugh? My mom, she's awesome.
9. nicknames your parents have called you? My father called me Jules....for the longest time (ie, until I was not in contact with him lol) I wouldn't let anyone outside of my family call me Jules....now it's good though :-)
10. best bed sheets you had as a child? Hunchback of Notre Dame sheets.
11. favorite childhood pet? Nala, doggy....
12. any pets now? Nala. She's.....seven years old I think.
13. others describe your ass as? I got a J.Lo booty! lmao
14. do you like your teeth? uh huh :D
15. inny or an outty? inny *pierced*
16. things you shout to stupid drivers? AAAAAAAAGGGHHHHHHH!!!! and Gepackausgabe....
17. favorite bathroom? Well, my house has just the one....gets a lil hectic when there are 3 gals in the house....
18. bake or broil? broil *mwahaha*
19. black olives or green olives? green green green green
20. what kind of phone do you own? black cordless....and purple stupid one. You can tell it's a female household when....there are more phones than people. We have 5 phones and 3 people living here:D
21. what's one of the strangest things you ever chewed on? iunno, a pen?
22. is your music kept in a particular order? Sheet music is kept in the order the musiclord (ie, Caswell) delivers. Other than that, no.
23. where do you get your film developed? Rogers (grocery store)
24. if your skin could be any color of the rainbow, what would you choose? Purple!
25. where did you go to pre-school? Mothercraft daycare place
26. strangest drug experience? "My teeth feel weird" LOL i've been high *once*
27. favorite weather? in the early summer, when its not really hot outside, it's a little cool, and you get a warm rain.
28. describe your fingernails? black, slightly chipped polish.
29. last time you had to go to the hospital? I'm not sure....the last time I remember is when my aunt Lilian was in the hospital with cancer....that was like 2/3 yrs ago tho
30. worst injury you've ever had? scraped my knee on a community tennis court....it was rather deep....I'm lucky though, I've never has a serious injury
31. how do you like your chocolate? frequent :D
32. favorite kind of tape? Duct of course
33. favorite thing to write or draw with? whiteout....it's amusing to see people's faces....
34. last movie you rented? Cabaret....must buy that
35. last movie you went to see? Ocean's Twelve
36. were you a thumb sucker? somewhat
37. how old are you? 15
38: What are your dreams like? bizarre and ever changing
39. hallucinations? don't have them
40. worst hotel you've ever been to? don't think I've even really been to a bad hotel
41. best vacation? EUROTRIP '04 :P
42. what languages can you speak? English, French somewhat
43. favorite house? current, pool out back, nice roof to sit on in the summer, loving mother....lol
44. favorite mode of transportation? OC or plane
45. favorite place to swim? my backyard :D :D
46. last porno you saw? I don't tend to watch porn, sorry ;-)
47. last song you listened to? Super Heroes from Rocky Horror
48. favorite kitchen utensil? that big old spoon that sits in the corner and never *really* gets used....
49. favorite driving songs? I'm not *old enough* yet. *pout* lol
50. what will you be doing tomorrow? Waking up an hour later than I have for the last two days (no more vb tryouts!!), going to school.....then general happiness that it's Friday!!
Welll, that's all the quiz....
I had Volleyball tryouts, which were interesting. I haven't played in a while, so my muscles are all stiff, but it felt good to be doing it again. I doubt I got on the team, but I had fun trying.
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I've been thinking a lot about my father and all that stuff lately....I got a letter from him a few weeks ago that I *still* haven't told my mom about....kinda nervous about that....Anyways, yeah....it seems like peoples lives are getting screwed up lately. I have my issues, and there are so many other people that hav messed up stuff in their lives....all I can say is people, talk to each other. It helps! Even if your friends haven't gone through the same things you have, you can share experiences with each other and support.
Anyway, this is a poem I've been writing....it's not finished yet, but I feel the need to post it anyhow....
[doesn't have a title]
Yelling, screaming, too much sound.
I don't know why you
Feel you have to
Make me feel so wrong.
No bruises, no cuts, nothing to show,
The pain is all inside.
He yelled again today, you know.
What can I do but hide?
So I dig down deeper into myself.
Icefire flows in my veins.
Hiding my feelings away on a shelf,
I think that I won't be the same.
Physical evidence comes and goes,
Bruises fade, and scars.
But though the hurt will never show,
His words reach much too far.
I know what he's saying isn't right,
But what can I really do?
Standing there listening every night,
He'll teach me to be that way too.
I hope I don't grow up the way he is.
I hope I get it right.
I vow that I won't make my kids
Stand and listen, every night.
He's killing me slowly, bit by bit,
And he doesn't even know.
He's losing me without realising it,
I try not to let it show.
Sometimes, you know, it gets to me,
These feelings I don't express.
Somehow I know he'll never see,
But then, maybe that's for the best.
They say the outside doesn't count,
It's what's inside that matters.
With every disapproving frown,
He leaves my heart in tatters.
I don't understand the game we play;
I was never told the rules.
All I know is he's driving me away,
And it hurts that he's so cruel.
....That's all I have for now....post more later....comments please!! (but no flaming....)
<3 Jט₤ịд
1. your full name? Julia Anne Lewis
2. grandparents' first names? Dorothy and Julius (father; no, I wasn't named after my grandfather....) and Mary and Philip (mom)
3. what songs do you sing in the shower? anything and everything =D
4. what did you fear was going to get you at night as a child? A monster I knew personally....
5. when and why did you last vomit? i really don't think i want to remember....
6. whats in your pockets right now? lipsmackers, buss pass, money and salt packets.
7. what color are your bedroom walls? this dirty old greyish-white. Will soon be blood red though!!
8. last thing that made you laugh? My mom, she's awesome.
9. nicknames your parents have called you? My father called me Jules....for the longest time (ie, until I was not in contact with him lol) I wouldn't let anyone outside of my family call me Jules....now it's good though :-)
10. best bed sheets you had as a child? Hunchback of Notre Dame sheets.
11. favorite childhood pet? Nala, doggy....
12. any pets now? Nala. She's.....seven years old I think.
13. others describe your ass as? I got a J.Lo booty! lmao
14. do you like your teeth? uh huh :D
15. inny or an outty? inny *pierced*
16. things you shout to stupid drivers? AAAAAAAAGGGHHHHHHH!!!! and Gepackausgabe....
17. favorite bathroom? Well, my house has just the one....gets a lil hectic when there are 3 gals in the house....
18. bake or broil? broil *mwahaha*
19. black olives or green olives? green green green green
20. what kind of phone do you own? black cordless....and purple stupid one. You can tell it's a female household when....there are more phones than people. We have 5 phones and 3 people living here:D
21. what's one of the strangest things you ever chewed on? iunno, a pen?
22. is your music kept in a particular order? Sheet music is kept in the order the musiclord (ie, Caswell) delivers. Other than that, no.
23. where do you get your film developed? Rogers (grocery store)
24. if your skin could be any color of the rainbow, what would you choose? Purple!
25. where did you go to pre-school? Mothercraft daycare place
26. strangest drug experience? "My teeth feel weird" LOL i've been high *once*
27. favorite weather? in the early summer, when its not really hot outside, it's a little cool, and you get a warm rain.
28. describe your fingernails? black, slightly chipped polish.
29. last time you had to go to the hospital? I'm not sure....the last time I remember is when my aunt Lilian was in the hospital with cancer....that was like 2/3 yrs ago tho
30. worst injury you've ever had? scraped my knee on a community tennis court....it was rather deep....I'm lucky though, I've never has a serious injury
31. how do you like your chocolate? frequent :D
32. favorite kind of tape? Duct of course
33. favorite thing to write or draw with? whiteout....it's amusing to see people's faces....
34. last movie you rented? Cabaret....must buy that
35. last movie you went to see? Ocean's Twelve
36. were you a thumb sucker? somewhat
37. how old are you? 15
38: What are your dreams like? bizarre and ever changing
39. hallucinations? don't have them
40. worst hotel you've ever been to? don't think I've even really been to a bad hotel
41. best vacation? EUROTRIP '04 :P
42. what languages can you speak? English, French somewhat
43. favorite house? current, pool out back, nice roof to sit on in the summer, loving mother....lol
44. favorite mode of transportation? OC or plane
45. favorite place to swim? my backyard :D :D
46. last porno you saw? I don't tend to watch porn, sorry ;-)
47. last song you listened to? Super Heroes from Rocky Horror
48. favorite kitchen utensil? that big old spoon that sits in the corner and never *really* gets used....
49. favorite driving songs? I'm not *old enough* yet. *pout* lol
50. what will you be doing tomorrow? Waking up an hour later than I have for the last two days (no more vb tryouts!!), going to school.....then general happiness that it's Friday!!
Welll, that's all the quiz....
I had Volleyball tryouts, which were interesting. I haven't played in a while, so my muscles are all stiff, but it felt good to be doing it again. I doubt I got on the team, but I had fun trying.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I've been thinking a lot about my father and all that stuff lately....I got a letter from him a few weeks ago that I *still* haven't told my mom about....kinda nervous about that....Anyways, yeah....it seems like peoples lives are getting screwed up lately. I have my issues, and there are so many other people that hav messed up stuff in their lives....all I can say is people, talk to each other. It helps! Even if your friends haven't gone through the same things you have, you can share experiences with each other and support.
Anyway, this is a poem I've been writing....it's not finished yet, but I feel the need to post it anyhow....
[doesn't have a title]
Yelling, screaming, too much sound.
I don't know why you
Feel you have to
Make me feel so wrong.
No bruises, no cuts, nothing to show,
The pain is all inside.
He yelled again today, you know.
What can I do but hide?
So I dig down deeper into myself.
Icefire flows in my veins.
Hiding my feelings away on a shelf,
I think that I won't be the same.
Physical evidence comes and goes,
Bruises fade, and scars.
But though the hurt will never show,
His words reach much too far.
I know what he's saying isn't right,
But what can I really do?
Standing there listening every night,
He'll teach me to be that way too.
I hope I don't grow up the way he is.
I hope I get it right.
I vow that I won't make my kids
Stand and listen, every night.
He's killing me slowly, bit by bit,
And he doesn't even know.
He's losing me without realising it,
I try not to let it show.
Sometimes, you know, it gets to me,
These feelings I don't express.
Somehow I know he'll never see,
But then, maybe that's for the best.
They say the outside doesn't count,
It's what's inside that matters.
With every disapproving frown,
He leaves my heart in tatters.
I don't understand the game we play;
I was never told the rules.
All I know is he's driving me away,
And it hurts that he's so cruel.
....That's all I have for now....post more later....comments please!! (but no flaming....)
<3 Jט₤ịд