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Blurgh!!!
Well, I had all those hassles with John for nearly 12 months, and I finally thought that it was ALL OKAY just this past weekend. We had maybe 20 talks before about serious stuff, and he always shrugged issues off.... this last weekend was different! He saw things properly, and apologised and said he felt bad for what he had done for the last 12 months without realising how bad he was. CUE BUZZER SOUND! ZZZt... wrong.
Tonight John hit me! Nice one.
He was drunk, and grabbed me by the hair and shoved his fist right into my face. WTF!! After a really awesome week. I felt he understood so went right out of my way to make things better for him... What for? I have no idea. I really should have stuck to my guns the other time things didnt look good. Talk about learning your lesson, and trusting your instincts.
SIGH!
To be honest, I am totally gutted. It hurts so so sickeningly much. I honestly thought things would be okay... Im not one of those people who needs to be with someone, I am totally happy single... and I think I should have stayed that way.
Peeps... if someone lies to you within the first 3 months of even knowing them? RUN LIKE THE DICKENS!
What a fucking asshole.
I hope this stupid tooth capping doesnt cost too much. He honestly smashed my front tooth out. He kept at it... and people I was with (my friends) held ME back... ARGHH. The cheek! Well, I am glad they did, its probably for the best. All his stuff is already packed (quite nicely might I add) and I am done with it.
I was THIS close: __ to ditching him and I didnt, and now I think OMG TIMOTHY trust your brain for a fucking change, and stop listing to your stupid heart. No matter how nice someone can seem, the little voice in our mind screaming at you to run is probably right.
Sigh.
Oh well, at least now I have me back, and my life. I cant even go into explaining the last 12 months (the first 12 were okay) but wow... maybe I will later.
Well, I had all those hassles with John for nearly 12 months, and I finally thought that it was ALL OKAY just this past weekend. We had maybe 20 talks before about serious stuff, and he always shrugged issues off.... this last weekend was different! He saw things properly, and apologised and said he felt bad for what he had done for the last 12 months without realising how bad he was. CUE BUZZER SOUND! ZZZt... wrong.
Tonight John hit me! Nice one.
He was drunk, and grabbed me by the hair and shoved his fist right into my face. WTF!! After a really awesome week. I felt he understood so went right out of my way to make things better for him... What for? I have no idea. I really should have stuck to my guns the other time things didnt look good. Talk about learning your lesson, and trusting your instincts.
SIGH!
To be honest, I am totally gutted. It hurts so so sickeningly much. I honestly thought things would be okay... Im not one of those people who needs to be with someone, I am totally happy single... and I think I should have stayed that way.
Peeps... if someone lies to you within the first 3 months of even knowing them? RUN LIKE THE DICKENS!
What a fucking asshole.
I hope this stupid tooth capping doesnt cost too much. He honestly smashed my front tooth out. He kept at it... and people I was with (my friends) held ME back... ARGHH. The cheek! Well, I am glad they did, its probably for the best. All his stuff is already packed (quite nicely might I add) and I am done with it.
I was THIS close: __ to ditching him and I didnt, and now I think OMG TIMOTHY trust your brain for a fucking change, and stop listing to your stupid heart. No matter how nice someone can seem, the little voice in our mind screaming at you to run is probably right.
Sigh.
Oh well, at least now I have me back, and my life. I cant even go into explaining the last 12 months (the first 12 were okay) but wow... maybe I will later.