Mid-Season finale notes and meta -- also fic-related things.
Notes:
So nervous here. I can't even. If Bobby dies, the whole damn cast is screwed. Because Cas is currently dead, and Bobby was the mediator in this goddamn show. Killing him off? Screwing over Dean and Sam. I am so fucking nervous.
Holy crap, I'm not even done with the intro, and I feel like I'm gonna cry my way through this episode. WTF, self?
Holy fuck, holy fuck what do we do here. Winchesters are freaking the fuck out and...what? Is thsis...ah, dreams at death's door. oh my fucking god I love the shit out of you Bobby.
Of course Bobby is trying to fucking get the word out on the Levis even when he's in a coma. I love you so hard.
*wibbles* Hoshit, what is happening now. Crapola, who is the kid? Is it little someone? Creepy kid is creepy as fuck. And which god is the kid referring to here? God-god, Chuck-god, or Cas-God.
Dude, you're taking out a reaper? Seriously, man.
Oh, Dean, fuck you. I'm sorry, Jet Li wins everything. I can't even, dude. You lose a lot of my respect, Dean, just for that one. *disgust*
Oh, boys...I love you so hard right now as you freak out and nearly cry.
And Bobby is a badass Hunter. He always has been, and I love the shit out of him as things go to shit. And boys, now I'm gonna whimper and probably cry. My whole soul is falling apart because the two of you are falling apart.
Rufus, you are the most awesome dude. Aside from Bobby.
This is good.
I LOVE THE SHIT OUT OF YOU, DREAM!RUFUS, AND I LOVE HOW YOU ARE YOU. ALSO I LOVE HER THE GIRL. THE GIRL WHO IS BEAUTIFUL.
SO DOES HE JUST NOT WANT KIDS, OR...oh, God, baby, don't, no...
Baby, oh, this is so awful, and I'm on the edge of tears again. Oh my god, oh my god I'm crying.
And why do you think you'll break everything you touch? You haven't broken the boys yet, and they're amazingly damaged already. If anything that it's insane.
I'm so freaking upset and I think that they're adorable. I'm gonna cry before this episode ends, aren't I? All the sobbing will occur.
Currently, my thoughts are "All my creys, Bobby, u haz them" and "GAH, BOIZ, NO, DON'T CRY. I CRY WHEN YOU CRY."
Gotta not cry the rest of the episode out. Well, I love it.
OH MY GOD, LITTLE DEAN. I'M GONNA CRY NOW BECAUSE THIS IS TOO ADORABLE. I NEED YOU IN MY LIFE, LITTLE DEAN.
Oh, Bobby, you are also too fuckin' adorable for words, aren't you?
Oh no. Elder Mr. Singer, you are a fucking asshole and I hope you went on to rot in Hell. And that's why you think you break everything.
Dean and Sam, please, babies, don't get so freaky, please.
Oh my God, Dean. YES, BADASS ANGRY DEAN MAKES AN APPEARANCE. I AM DYING OF JOY RIGHT NOW, BECAUSE THIS IS THE DEAN THAT I LOVE THE...Dick, I am completely in love with the way that you're so screwed. There's so much awesome in Angry!Dean, you should realize that they're as badass as it gets.
Sam and Dean freakin' out again. I AM GOING TO CRY. I AM GOING TO FUCKING CRY.
Damn it, damn it, damn it, I'm going to freaking die over this.
Oh, Sammy, you're one to lecture on the nature of reality. And I note you needed to check, which is wonderful. CONTINUITY FTW!
Oh my God, Bobby, you are a better dad than John ever was. I want to fucking marry you. You are beautiful.
Holy shit. Uh, sorry, dude. Bobby doesn't die. He's not allowed to. NO HE HAS NOT,
HOLY SHIT, "Because they're my boys."
Holy shit, I'm in love with this episode. Bobby, you are the most wonderful man. This is why I ship you with Crowls. Because he's the only one who could possibly fully appreciate your awesome.
HOLY SHIT. BOBBY, LOVE YOU SO MUCH FUCK I CAN'T EVEN DO ANYTHING.
Son of a bitch!
Whoa. Did you do that in the first time? You did. Holly shit.
I can't even. FUCK, I LOVE YOU BOBBY. I THINK I'M GONNA DIE. IF YOU DIE, I'MMA DIE.
IF THOSE ARE YOUR LAST WORDS.
No, no no, please don't die, Bobby. You're not allowed to die. It's not fucking fair. You're all they have. You're a better father than John Winchester ever was, and you...you are too freaking awesome. If you...this isn't fair. And I realize that this show doesn't do fair, but as Dean said, they've been through enough. THEY'VE BEEN THROUGH ENOUGH, CHUCK/GOD/SERA GAMBLE. GIVE THEM A FUCKING BREAK, PLEASE.
DON'T DIE, PLEASE. BOBBY, YOU'RE GONNA FUCKING BREAK THEM IF THEY DIE.
GOD DAMNIT, YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED TO DIE, BECAUSE IF YOU DO, EVERYTHING GOES AWAY. I'M GONNA..
OH, FUCK YOU, REAPER. FUCK YOU, REAPER.
*HYPERVENTILATES* I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.
Peanut butter and bananas, also licorice.
No, no, no, please stay. I know it's terrible, but I need you to stay.
Fuck. that promo, I need that promo.
Meta:
First, HOLY CRAP. This episode made me fucking cry. That is the first time tears have actually fallen down my face for a SPN episode. Not just getting teary, not just choking up. TEARS. MY FACE. DOWN.
Second, Bobby wins everything. He is the most amazing, awesome, loyal son of a bitch on this show. He gave the boys the information that they need, and he...oh, just, oh God. The darkest memories in Bobby's head are fucking dark. But I honestly can't see Bobby doing anything else, even as a kid. He's just that man. He'll care for the vulnerable, and be the warmth in the cold, even though he thought he wasn't worth it. So he committed patricide? I don't give a shit. He did it to save his mom, and trust me, this show doesn't have nearly enough moms.
Three, Dean freaking out on Dick about the fact that he's, well, a dick. It is glorious and awesome and gave me squeegly feelings all throughout my cuerpo. I have no idea why I slipped into Spanish there, but whatever. But I get the feeling that those cell phone videos are going to come back and bite him in the ass.
Four, Bobby's last word being "Idjits" is so fucking appropriate, I can't even. My entire soul cried out in sorrow and pain. MY SOUL. MY SOULLLLLLL.
Five, li'l Dean is too cute.
Six, Dean liking Chuck Norris over Jet Li offends the tiniest particles of my very existence. Dean, I are disappoint.
Seven, If Bobby dies, I am going to freak the fuck out. Seriously, this is a new level of awful. Killing off Cas was bad enough, but killing off Bobby? That's truly an evil thing for the writers to do. I'm going off to the sorting algorithm of deadness. Be back in a minute.
Back. If Bobby dies, he scores a 2.5 on the scale, which means that he is fairly likely to come back. Generally speaking, 2.5 is a good score to have. And he's been dead once before, which helps.
God, I hope Bobby doesn't stay dead (I know better than to hope for his survival on this show).
And finally, I cannot help but adore the boys' reactions to the situation. Dean freaks the fuck out (as he is wont to do) in a manner highly reminiscent of when he went off on the Impala after John's death. He almost punches the insurance guy and makes a death threat to Dick...that people record on their phones. Not sensible, Dean, but I don't think you care about that too much. Sam's reaction is quieter, subtler. He tries to accept the situation but still wishes it wasn't true. God, when he presses against his wounded hand -- that is a moment that tore me to shreds.
My last words about this are the same as they always are: CAS, YOU GET YOUR ANGEL ASS BACK TO DEAN. It's just more urgent now, because Bobby is dying and Sam is having hallucinations and Dean is drinking himself to death and making death threats to important public figures in public. These are Bad Things. We need an angel on our side, okay?
Okay, now, onto fic info -- I'm currently getting my BB Mixup fic ready. I'm trying to figure out if I'm going to change and be canon-compliant up through this episode or not. Probably not. But yeah, the BB Mixup fic is a darkfic. I'm calling it Of Monsters and Men, and the mix is brilliant.
The fic is basically about what happens after Sam is kidnapped by Leviathans and Cas returns to Dean. There is dubcon and smut and references to torture and on page torture and all sorts of psychological horror and drama and angst. Pairings in point are Dean/Cas, Sam/Lucifer, and Sam/Cas, and there may be intimations of never-consummated Wincest. This fic is going to be kind of epic in length, and I feel really nervous. I put an ad out on spn_beta, though, so I think I'll get something soon enough.
So nervous here. I can't even. If Bobby dies, the whole damn cast is screwed. Because Cas is currently dead, and Bobby was the mediator in this goddamn show. Killing him off? Screwing over Dean and Sam. I am so fucking nervous.
Holy crap, I'm not even done with the intro, and I feel like I'm gonna cry my way through this episode. WTF, self?
Holy fuck, holy fuck what do we do here. Winchesters are freaking the fuck out and...what? Is thsis...ah, dreams at death's door. oh my fucking god I love the shit out of you Bobby.
Of course Bobby is trying to fucking get the word out on the Levis even when he's in a coma. I love you so hard.
*wibbles* Hoshit, what is happening now. Crapola, who is the kid? Is it little someone? Creepy kid is creepy as fuck. And which god is the kid referring to here? God-god, Chuck-god, or Cas-God.
Dude, you're taking out a reaper? Seriously, man.
Oh, Dean, fuck you. I'm sorry, Jet Li wins everything. I can't even, dude. You lose a lot of my respect, Dean, just for that one. *disgust*
Oh, boys...I love you so hard right now as you freak out and nearly cry.
And Bobby is a badass Hunter. He always has been, and I love the shit out of him as things go to shit. And boys, now I'm gonna whimper and probably cry. My whole soul is falling apart because the two of you are falling apart.
Rufus, you are the most awesome dude. Aside from Bobby.
This is good.
I LOVE THE SHIT OUT OF YOU, DREAM!RUFUS, AND I LOVE HOW YOU ARE YOU. ALSO I LOVE HER THE GIRL. THE GIRL WHO IS BEAUTIFUL.
SO DOES HE JUST NOT WANT KIDS, OR...oh, God, baby, don't, no...
Baby, oh, this is so awful, and I'm on the edge of tears again. Oh my god, oh my god I'm crying.
And why do you think you'll break everything you touch? You haven't broken the boys yet, and they're amazingly damaged already. If anything that it's insane.
I'm so freaking upset and I think that they're adorable. I'm gonna cry before this episode ends, aren't I? All the sobbing will occur.
Currently, my thoughts are "All my creys, Bobby, u haz them" and "GAH, BOIZ, NO, DON'T CRY. I CRY WHEN YOU CRY."
Gotta not cry the rest of the episode out. Well, I love it.
OH MY GOD, LITTLE DEAN. I'M GONNA CRY NOW BECAUSE THIS IS TOO ADORABLE. I NEED YOU IN MY LIFE, LITTLE DEAN.
Oh, Bobby, you are also too fuckin' adorable for words, aren't you?
Oh no. Elder Mr. Singer, you are a fucking asshole and I hope you went on to rot in Hell. And that's why you think you break everything.
Dean and Sam, please, babies, don't get so freaky, please.
Oh my God, Dean. YES, BADASS ANGRY DEAN MAKES AN APPEARANCE. I AM DYING OF JOY RIGHT NOW, BECAUSE THIS IS THE DEAN THAT I LOVE THE...Dick, I am completely in love with the way that you're so screwed. There's so much awesome in Angry!Dean, you should realize that they're as badass as it gets.
Sam and Dean freakin' out again. I AM GOING TO CRY. I AM GOING TO FUCKING CRY.
Damn it, damn it, damn it, I'm going to freaking die over this.
Oh, Sammy, you're one to lecture on the nature of reality. And I note you needed to check, which is wonderful. CONTINUITY FTW!
Oh my God, Bobby, you are a better dad than John ever was. I want to fucking marry you. You are beautiful.
Holy shit. Uh, sorry, dude. Bobby doesn't die. He's not allowed to. NO HE HAS NOT,
HOLY SHIT, "Because they're my boys."
Holy shit, I'm in love with this episode. Bobby, you are the most wonderful man. This is why I ship you with Crowls. Because he's the only one who could possibly fully appreciate your awesome.
HOLY SHIT. BOBBY, LOVE YOU SO MUCH FUCK I CAN'T EVEN DO ANYTHING.
Son of a bitch!
Whoa. Did you do that in the first time? You did. Holly shit.
I can't even. FUCK, I LOVE YOU BOBBY. I THINK I'M GONNA DIE. IF YOU DIE, I'MMA DIE.
IF THOSE ARE YOUR LAST WORDS.
No, no no, please don't die, Bobby. You're not allowed to die. It's not fucking fair. You're all they have. You're a better father than John Winchester ever was, and you...you are too freaking awesome. If you...this isn't fair. And I realize that this show doesn't do fair, but as Dean said, they've been through enough. THEY'VE BEEN THROUGH ENOUGH, CHUCK/GOD/SERA GAMBLE. GIVE THEM A FUCKING BREAK, PLEASE.
DON'T DIE, PLEASE. BOBBY, YOU'RE GONNA FUCKING BREAK THEM IF THEY DIE.
GOD DAMNIT, YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED TO DIE, BECAUSE IF YOU DO, EVERYTHING GOES AWAY. I'M GONNA..
OH, FUCK YOU, REAPER. FUCK YOU, REAPER.
*HYPERVENTILATES* I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.
Peanut butter and bananas, also licorice.
No, no, no, please stay. I know it's terrible, but I need you to stay.
Fuck. that promo, I need that promo.
Meta:
First, HOLY CRAP. This episode made me fucking cry. That is the first time tears have actually fallen down my face for a SPN episode. Not just getting teary, not just choking up. TEARS. MY FACE. DOWN.
Second, Bobby wins everything. He is the most amazing, awesome, loyal son of a bitch on this show. He gave the boys the information that they need, and he...oh, just, oh God. The darkest memories in Bobby's head are fucking dark. But I honestly can't see Bobby doing anything else, even as a kid. He's just that man. He'll care for the vulnerable, and be the warmth in the cold, even though he thought he wasn't worth it. So he committed patricide? I don't give a shit. He did it to save his mom, and trust me, this show doesn't have nearly enough moms.
Three, Dean freaking out on Dick about the fact that he's, well, a dick. It is glorious and awesome and gave me squeegly feelings all throughout my cuerpo. I have no idea why I slipped into Spanish there, but whatever. But I get the feeling that those cell phone videos are going to come back and bite him in the ass.
Four, Bobby's last word being "Idjits" is so fucking appropriate, I can't even. My entire soul cried out in sorrow and pain. MY SOUL. MY SOULLLLLLL.
Five, li'l Dean is too cute.
Six, Dean liking Chuck Norris over Jet Li offends the tiniest particles of my very existence. Dean, I are disappoint.
Seven, If Bobby dies, I am going to freak the fuck out. Seriously, this is a new level of awful. Killing off Cas was bad enough, but killing off Bobby? That's truly an evil thing for the writers to do. I'm going off to the sorting algorithm of deadness. Be back in a minute.
Back. If Bobby dies, he scores a 2.5 on the scale, which means that he is fairly likely to come back. Generally speaking, 2.5 is a good score to have. And he's been dead once before, which helps.
God, I hope Bobby doesn't stay dead (I know better than to hope for his survival on this show).
And finally, I cannot help but adore the boys' reactions to the situation. Dean freaks the fuck out (as he is wont to do) in a manner highly reminiscent of when he went off on the Impala after John's death. He almost punches the insurance guy and makes a death threat to Dick...that people record on their phones. Not sensible, Dean, but I don't think you care about that too much. Sam's reaction is quieter, subtler. He tries to accept the situation but still wishes it wasn't true. God, when he presses against his wounded hand -- that is a moment that tore me to shreds.
My last words about this are the same as they always are: CAS, YOU GET YOUR ANGEL ASS BACK TO DEAN. It's just more urgent now, because Bobby is dying and Sam is having hallucinations and Dean is drinking himself to death and making death threats to important public figures in public. These are Bad Things. We need an angel on our side, okay?
Okay, now, onto fic info -- I'm currently getting my BB Mixup fic ready. I'm trying to figure out if I'm going to change and be canon-compliant up through this episode or not. Probably not. But yeah, the BB Mixup fic is a darkfic. I'm calling it Of Monsters and Men, and the mix is brilliant.
The fic is basically about what happens after Sam is kidnapped by Leviathans and Cas returns to Dean. There is dubcon and smut and references to torture and on page torture and all sorts of psychological horror and drama and angst. Pairings in point are Dean/Cas, Sam/Lucifer, and Sam/Cas, and there may be intimations of never-consummated Wincest. This fic is going to be kind of epic in length, and I feel really nervous. I put an ad out on spn_beta, though, so I think I'll get something soon enough.