Seriously. Nevermind. Fuck off and die. Really. I don't care. Not anymore. So maybe I'm spoiled. So maybe I'm impatient. I don't care, not anymore
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I'm sorry if what I said made you feel bad about yourself. That's the last thing I want. What I say I always want to present as an opinion, not the absolute truth, because I sure as heck don't have all the wisdom in the world.
I tell you that you will meet someone because I need to believe the same thing for myself. I need to believe that out of the six billion souls on this planet and 17 million in this country, there has to be AT LEAST one for me. No, I don't know for sure. 'Hoop doet leven'. Without hope or faith, we are nothing. We can just sit on our ass all of our lives wallowing in despair and selfpity complaining, never making any progress.
And I definitely don't know how to get into a serious relationship... like Lydia says, it's not like you just decide to get one. Me, an expert? I've had ONE relationship or at least something like it and it was a complete mess.
Meanwhile, you're not the only person struggling with this. Pretty much everyone has at some point, we all want to find that someone, we all want to love and feel loved; and at some point we all despair that it'll never happen for us. And at that point you can sit and complain about how miserable your life is, or you can choose to have faith anyway.
I don't feel rejected, I recognise you're going through a rough time. But you uttered the famous word 'hermit' and if that's what you want, to be alone for a while, then be that. You understood better than anyone what that guy was talking about - wanting people close, yet at the same time pushing them away. Saying you don't want pity when people are honestly trying to help out.
But you're better than him. You actually face and deal with your emotions even though it's really hard on you. I respect that. No pity.
And like Cynni says, if you can't handle or don't want the care and advice of friends, then fine. I am here for you, but I already broke my own heart trying to be there for someone who didn't want me around; when you're done feeling sorry for yourself and hating the people who want to support you, let me know.
I tell you that you will meet someone because I need to believe the same thing for myself. I need to believe that out of the six billion souls on this planet and 17 million in this country, there has to be AT LEAST one for me. No, I don't know for sure. 'Hoop doet leven'. Without hope or faith, we are nothing. We can just sit on our ass all of our lives wallowing in despair and selfpity complaining, never making any progress.
And I definitely don't know how to get into a serious relationship... like Lydia says, it's not like you just decide to get one. Me, an expert? I've had ONE relationship or at least something like it and it was a complete mess.
Meanwhile, you're not the only person struggling with this. Pretty much everyone has at some point, we all want to find that someone, we all want to love and feel loved; and at some point we all despair that it'll never happen for us. And at that point you can sit and complain about how miserable your life is, or you can choose to have faith anyway.
I don't feel rejected, I recognise you're going through a rough time. But you uttered the famous word 'hermit' and if that's what you want, to be alone for a while, then be that. You understood better than anyone what that guy was talking about - wanting people close, yet at the same time pushing them away. Saying you don't want pity when people are honestly trying to help out.
But you're better than him. You actually face and deal with your emotions even though it's really hard on you. I respect that. No pity.
And like Cynni says, if you can't handle or don't want the care and advice of friends, then fine. I am here for you, but I already broke my own heart trying to be there for someone who didn't want me around; when you're done feeling sorry for yourself and hating the people who want to support you, let me know.
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