this doesnt mean im better, jus not getting worse
"She was a sour girl the day that she met me"
well me, i feel like ive been through alot in a short ammount of time. that or ive put myself through alot and i had an epiphany today.
1. i think that my mind is SOME sort of defense mechanism thats completely out-a-wack. i can remember some little things, and forget complete other little things. theres no apparent pattern or relevence. just a memory taht works when it wants to. yeah it is a really bad thing taht i need to fix it somehow...moving to the 2nd thing
2. on some LINKS if you right click and select "cached snapshot of page" you can travel back in what the page had once displayed when google, i guess, had taken a picture for records(?) well anyway, i discovered it today and im still trying to use it. i can tell you taht it does not work on netscape and on some lj's. where it works on some lj's and xanga's. so i had discovered it when i was reading an entry on a persons xanga. i would like to think of it as some sort of a time travel or insight (dont ask) and i was able to go back all the way to march with one click! here i read what seemed to be the writings of a completely different person. surveys galore, constant ':(' faces, song lyrics every other entry. the works of an un happy individual. and i would travel forward and backward from there and i would continue to see refrences of a friend of mine. how she would feel so good when ever she would talk to him. "I believe he makes me happier than any guy ever has. But of course, there's always a bloody catch." he would show this to me and talk about how it means so much to him. well, unfortunatley she had cut things off with him some months after that.
long story short: he had showed me that stuff then andi read that stuff now and she seem sto be a happier person, or at least is aiming to be that.
i remind him that at least shes happier then she was before, even if it was at his own cost. that theres nothing wrong with havinig a degree of hope not for now, but future-ly speaking. and above all to remember the best times he had had in a long time.
he agrees 100%
"She was a happy girl the day that she left me "
well me, i feel like ive been through alot in a short ammount of time. that or ive put myself through alot and i had an epiphany today.
1. i think that my mind is SOME sort of defense mechanism thats completely out-a-wack. i can remember some little things, and forget complete other little things. theres no apparent pattern or relevence. just a memory taht works when it wants to. yeah it is a really bad thing taht i need to fix it somehow...moving to the 2nd thing
2. on some LINKS if you right click and select "cached snapshot of page" you can travel back in what the page had once displayed when google, i guess, had taken a picture for records(?) well anyway, i discovered it today and im still trying to use it. i can tell you taht it does not work on netscape and on some lj's. where it works on some lj's and xanga's. so i had discovered it when i was reading an entry on a persons xanga. i would like to think of it as some sort of a time travel or insight (dont ask) and i was able to go back all the way to march with one click! here i read what seemed to be the writings of a completely different person. surveys galore, constant ':(' faces, song lyrics every other entry. the works of an un happy individual. and i would travel forward and backward from there and i would continue to see refrences of a friend of mine. how she would feel so good when ever she would talk to him. "I believe he makes me happier than any guy ever has. But of course, there's always a bloody catch." he would show this to me and talk about how it means so much to him. well, unfortunatley she had cut things off with him some months after that.
long story short: he had showed me that stuff then andi read that stuff now and she seem sto be a happier person, or at least is aiming to be that.
i remind him that at least shes happier then she was before, even if it was at his own cost. that theres nothing wrong with havinig a degree of hope not for now, but future-ly speaking. and above all to remember the best times he had had in a long time.
he agrees 100%
"She was a happy girl the day that she left me "