i dont know if this will make sense...but im just gunna ramble.

[murderus_]

so lately ive been a little down...

ive never felt so confused, honestly..i always know what im doing and where im going and i ALWAYS have control over my life and every situiation in it.
everything is up in the air right now, but my life has been changeing so quick lately..i dont know anymore.
my living situation will be good but it depends on ALOT.
my friend situation rocks the fuck out, im happy with that.
now as far as my 'love life' goes it is confusing and i dont like it...
this whole thing is brand new to me.
i never let people get too close unless im sure im safe.
thats a good and bad thing for me...i suppose.
if that makes anysense.

ive been relating to alot of movies, and music ....i cant just listen anymore, now it effects me.
ive found myself turning off songs like crazy.
and i fucking hate that.
i want something so bad...but not just anything to waste my time,or keep me busy...
something fucking real.

i know this might be a little vegue..im not very good at explaning myself anymore.
sorry.