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Life this week has been more processing of the effects of school on my heart. Hoiii it feels never-ending. A constant diarrhea stream of heart challenges. I suppose in the end it will be valuable lessons learned, especially regarding work dynamics. Though that doesn't make it any less exhausting.
I feel like I've had to do a lot of sorting out social interactions. Holding on to connections that are meaningful to me, and still putting energy into making those interactions happen and be open to them happening. While not letting surface-level shooting-the-shit-just-because-we're-around-each-other-all-day-but-actually-are-very-different-people interactions drain me of energy or make me forget that I can still create connections that are meaningful to me. This is not something my heart is used to sorting out.
Though I do feel it is important to be able to figure out how to work with people who are very different from myself. I just don't feel like I want to try and force some unsatisfying connection to happen with someone just because I'm around them five hours a day.
Learning to put my energy into things my heart needs. BluHGHHhfssfg.
Haaa! I'm making an album! It's almost done! I am silk-screening the covers! It will have a CD and a zine! I AM PUMPED FARTZ FARTZ FARTZ. <3
I feel like I've had to do a lot of sorting out social interactions. Holding on to connections that are meaningful to me, and still putting energy into making those interactions happen and be open to them happening. While not letting surface-level shooting-the-shit-just-because-we're-around-each-other-all-day-but-actually-are-very-different-people interactions drain me of energy or make me forget that I can still create connections that are meaningful to me. This is not something my heart is used to sorting out.
Though I do feel it is important to be able to figure out how to work with people who are very different from myself. I just don't feel like I want to try and force some unsatisfying connection to happen with someone just because I'm around them five hours a day.
Learning to put my energy into things my heart needs. BluHGHHhfssfg.
Haaa! I'm making an album! It's almost done! I am silk-screening the covers! It will have a CD and a zine! I AM PUMPED FARTZ FARTZ FARTZ. <3