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7,665 days ago I left a pink womb through my mom's stomach via c-section.
When I was in my teens, I knew that I had once been much smaller and younger. But I still felt like I was very youthful, like I was still in the first stages of life as a human. My 21st birthday made me realize that I no longer feel that way. I no longer feel like I'm in the first stages of discovery, breaking out of my youth. Of course I always am learning new things and discovering new things about myself as I did when I was young. But now when I look back, the path I have traveled through my life looks much longer, with far more detail. I will never be that young again. Now I venture through my 20's.
It's crazy how easy it is sometimes for me to forget just how mortal and impermanent my body really is. But also crazy is how much can happen to me in just a year's worth of time. I have learned so much this year:
Listening to my heart, and not being afraid to express my feelings
Identifying male-socialized behavior and learning to remove it from my life
Having an open and honest heart to the world and creating many meaningful connections as a result
Embracing the impermanence of dynamics, people, places, and the universe as a whole
The feeling of being a part of a community of people who care about each other
A year ago I read a page of a zine Lily wrote where she said "I don't want to think about anything I've done or know anything will ever do. I only want pure action," and I wrote it on my last birthday because it felt very true to me. And it still is.
When I was in my teens, I knew that I had once been much smaller and younger. But I still felt like I was very youthful, like I was still in the first stages of life as a human. My 21st birthday made me realize that I no longer feel that way. I no longer feel like I'm in the first stages of discovery, breaking out of my youth. Of course I always am learning new things and discovering new things about myself as I did when I was young. But now when I look back, the path I have traveled through my life looks much longer, with far more detail. I will never be that young again. Now I venture through my 20's.
It's crazy how easy it is sometimes for me to forget just how mortal and impermanent my body really is. But also crazy is how much can happen to me in just a year's worth of time. I have learned so much this year:
Listening to my heart, and not being afraid to express my feelings
Identifying male-socialized behavior and learning to remove it from my life
Having an open and honest heart to the world and creating many meaningful connections as a result
Embracing the impermanence of dynamics, people, places, and the universe as a whole
The feeling of being a part of a community of people who care about each other
A year ago I read a page of a zine Lily wrote where she said "I don't want to think about anything I've done or know anything will ever do. I only want pure action," and I wrote it on my last birthday because it felt very true to me. And it still is.