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School is now in full blow. I am the music tech intern and I share an office with another intern. I learn a lot from it, though I am there at least 5-6 hours a day monday through sometimes friday. I learn a lot about articulating and communicating things, especially things about computers and processes and synthesizers. Hooooof.
It's hard though because suddenly I don't have as much time for the things I did before school started. Like making lots of art and regularly listening to my heart and learning to articulate my feelings and connecting to people in meaningful ways. And processing my feelings. Hoiiii. I can still do it but it sometimes goes a lot slower. I feel like I've had to make sacrifices in other areas of my life for school right now, and often I find myself asking "is this worth it? I could just drop this shit and keep making amazing things without school at all."
Though it is true that there are a lot of things that I am learning right now that would be fairly difficult to learn otherwise. Thats my justification for being in school right now. To discover things that I can take with me back into the non-academic world that I wouldn't have otherwise discovered. I have to remember that I'm not in school for any other reason than to do the things I do outside of school better.
It's so easy to get sucked into academia. The five mile distance from Olympia to Evergreen is like entering a whole new bubble of existence. I'm so absorbed into Evergreen that I worry that I'll lose the things I love outside of school because of the sudden lack of time I have to put into those things. But there is so much little time to do anything but this internship. I don't want to get trapped into collegecore lifestyle.
Hey, heeeyyy. It's okay. I will learn a lot. A lot a lot. And I can do what I can outside of school. Holy shit it's only been like a month and I've learned SO much. And then once it is over I will have something amazing to bring back to my own art and to my friends. I'm in a time of discovery.
Just don't forget what you have to come back to.
It's hard though because suddenly I don't have as much time for the things I did before school started. Like making lots of art and regularly listening to my heart and learning to articulate my feelings and connecting to people in meaningful ways. And processing my feelings. Hoiiii. I can still do it but it sometimes goes a lot slower. I feel like I've had to make sacrifices in other areas of my life for school right now, and often I find myself asking "is this worth it? I could just drop this shit and keep making amazing things without school at all."
Though it is true that there are a lot of things that I am learning right now that would be fairly difficult to learn otherwise. Thats my justification for being in school right now. To discover things that I can take with me back into the non-academic world that I wouldn't have otherwise discovered. I have to remember that I'm not in school for any other reason than to do the things I do outside of school better.
It's so easy to get sucked into academia. The five mile distance from Olympia to Evergreen is like entering a whole new bubble of existence. I'm so absorbed into Evergreen that I worry that I'll lose the things I love outside of school because of the sudden lack of time I have to put into those things. But there is so much little time to do anything but this internship. I don't want to get trapped into collegecore lifestyle.
Hey, heeeyyy. It's okay. I will learn a lot. A lot a lot. And I can do what I can outside of school. Holy shit it's only been like a month and I've learned SO much. And then once it is over I will have something amazing to bring back to my own art and to my friends. I'm in a time of discovery.
Just don't forget what you have to come back to.