You Better Stay Indoors
I've decided that I don't feel like hanging out. I need a sabatical or something. I mean, I'm just not in the mood for it. Things were bad enough but now that I'm not even on speaking terms with who I guess is now my ex-boyfriend. I don't like that. It was a stupid fight and it was his fault. But it's not fair that I'm on this punishment/reward system when he's the one who fucks up the relationship. I never do anything. Seriously. He just decides he needs to find a reason to break up with me and then tortures me with these break-ups that I neither want nor cause. I'm sure a few of the times he's convinced himself that it's my fault but it's usually b/c some lie someone told about or something. And the fact that he believes these other people over me is just so totally wrong. The fact that he would be around people that would talk shit about me is just wrong, too. Like that time I sarcastically said "I am so breaking up with him" b/c of something stupid that happened, I obviously didn't mean it but this person that we knew was standing next to me and went back and said that I was telling everyone at the club I was broken up with him and hitting on everybody. When in actuality shortly after that incident I had left. Then after we got in a fight about this the next night, I go to his mom's house and someone tells him I was at this other bar throwing myself at everyone. Then he found out that I was at his mom's house, boy was he sorry. I'm just so fucking sick of all of this. Really sick. I don't know what to do.