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the day has been so ughh...
it was the last day for seniors (tear) now the school feels so empty o well its almost over so it doesnt rele matter...
i rele am starting to think why it always takes me about a week or two to update my lj i have to stop being so god damn lazy. so back to the update
i need someone to explain how to get rid of a feeling i like to call UGH!!! ive been so stressed out and i feel too tired to move sometimes yet i cant find the source of my feelings.i try to be happy even when im with some of my best friend i still find myself drifting away from reality and falling into a state of darkness. even the simplest thing will get to me and make me think of how my emotions get twisted around.
i was driving today, staring out the window and the clouds starting to bring a thought to my head. it might have been their image; honestly it looks like something was about to suck the day in, as if it were a back hole. its amazing how dark white is.
the days seem to be eternal now. and i feel as if im sitting here holding my breath waiting for the new start, a new beginning, just a new day to come. i wonder if one-day im just going to fall to the ground for i feel as if im being suffocated and the breath to save my life keeps toying with me wanting me to suffer. i always seem to be saved right at the moment when i want to die. but no one stays with me, as soon as im brought back they are gone and i start to die all over.
i wonder if anyone rele likes anyone. do people just show appreciation for others while they are present and as soon as they have left turn cold and bitter with the world?
other must get these same thoughts right? i cant just be the only one who would brew these images in their head.
i wonder when the day when my entry will be a normal and happy one...
it was the last day for seniors (tear) now the school feels so empty o well its almost over so it doesnt rele matter...
i rele am starting to think why it always takes me about a week or two to update my lj i have to stop being so god damn lazy. so back to the update
i need someone to explain how to get rid of a feeling i like to call UGH!!! ive been so stressed out and i feel too tired to move sometimes yet i cant find the source of my feelings.i try to be happy even when im with some of my best friend i still find myself drifting away from reality and falling into a state of darkness. even the simplest thing will get to me and make me think of how my emotions get twisted around.
i was driving today, staring out the window and the clouds starting to bring a thought to my head. it might have been their image; honestly it looks like something was about to suck the day in, as if it were a back hole. its amazing how dark white is.
the days seem to be eternal now. and i feel as if im sitting here holding my breath waiting for the new start, a new beginning, just a new day to come. i wonder if one-day im just going to fall to the ground for i feel as if im being suffocated and the breath to save my life keeps toying with me wanting me to suffer. i always seem to be saved right at the moment when i want to die. but no one stays with me, as soon as im brought back they are gone and i start to die all over.
i wonder if anyone rele likes anyone. do people just show appreciation for others while they are present and as soon as they have left turn cold and bitter with the world?
other must get these same thoughts right? i cant just be the only one who would brew these images in their head.
i wonder when the day when my entry will be a normal and happy one...