all my thoughts melt away and i end up looking at a puddle of bad days
Yeah I know I haven’t updated in forever but NOTHING and I mean nothing had happened except for just recently but of course its fucking ridiculous and it seems that I don’t just fuck up my life any more I end up fucking with other peoples lives as well. I guess I just can’t win until it’s the complete end and sadly that seems quite a whiles away. Its either that or it ended a long time ago, I know I cant be the only one who feels like they are living an endless story at times. Not even being able to make your own decisions, its already been written out. Just the thought of that seems too depressing to take into consideration. I guess I just might be going crazy but it would at least be a reasonable explanation for some events happening. I find it amazing to be able to hate someone you love. Ok I guess hate is too strong of a word but upset and disappointed doesn’t seem strong enough. It will just have to do. Whatever this isn’t even remotely interesting...
By the way I just wanted you to know,
It’s not just my tears I cry,
But yours as well.
You may feel bad,
But that’s all I ever have.
You may have thought it would help,
You just added more pain to me.
You may think the scratch will soon be gone,
But the scars you left on me will last forever.
Your tears will dry up,
But mine stain my face.
It’s sad to think that my life isn’t just mine any more.
I hate being able to know that you could kill me.
I hate being able to realize the truth,
Thick as blood,
Drips from that.
Thick as blood.
Can you imagine...
How do you think it will happen?
One day ill have no choice, or
One day ill just give up.
Its sad to think I can’t just kill myself,
I’d have to kill you with me.
I can’t stand to think of what I could do,
I can’t stand to think of what you could say.
I CANT STAND YOU!
But, I know I'm too weak without you,
I might as well be dead.
I know no one cares,
I’m all right with that.
As long as you can hear this cry,
This plea,
You will understand that I need you
Or I might as well be dead
Whatever, It's sad
But life is sad as well...
By the way I just wanted you to know,
It’s not just my tears I cry,
But yours as well.
You may feel bad,
But that’s all I ever have.
You may have thought it would help,
You just added more pain to me.
You may think the scratch will soon be gone,
But the scars you left on me will last forever.
Your tears will dry up,
But mine stain my face.
It’s sad to think that my life isn’t just mine any more.
I hate being able to know that you could kill me.
I hate being able to realize the truth,
Thick as blood,
Drips from that.
Thick as blood.
Can you imagine...
How do you think it will happen?
One day ill have no choice, or
One day ill just give up.
Its sad to think I can’t just kill myself,
I’d have to kill you with me.
I can’t stand to think of what I could do,
I can’t stand to think of what you could say.
I CANT STAND YOU!
But, I know I'm too weak without you,
I might as well be dead.
I know no one cares,
I’m all right with that.
As long as you can hear this cry,
This plea,
You will understand that I need you
Or I might as well be dead
Whatever, It's sad
But life is sad as well...