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today was an okay day.
music wasn't great cuz i was just hanging out with jesse and kevin and they're kind of assholes. but i guess it's because that's how our friendship really is right now. and maybe that'll make us closer in the long run. but at the moment it's just a piss off.
and then second was fine. i walked to the recs center with tyler before his co op and when i was walking back i just was sort of thinking about things.
about how, i have spent so much time worrying about what things are going to be like when my friends leave innisdale and other things like that. and i think that i realized i'm okay by myself. i like that i don't need anyone other than myself.
so i after this i didn't really feel like seeing anyone so i went to the library and found a new book to read.
tonight i'm going to newmarket and maybe i'll see gill but probably not.
i'm kind of dissapointed with myself at how selfish i'm being about this situation but i do understand that is pretty much just the way that i am now. and maybe doing something or just thinking for yourself, making my own decisions, is something i should do more often.
i feel bad because i don't want to hurt her. but i don't want to have this drag on, because i think that eventually we will both be happy.
music wasn't great cuz i was just hanging out with jesse and kevin and they're kind of assholes. but i guess it's because that's how our friendship really is right now. and maybe that'll make us closer in the long run. but at the moment it's just a piss off.
and then second was fine. i walked to the recs center with tyler before his co op and when i was walking back i just was sort of thinking about things.
about how, i have spent so much time worrying about what things are going to be like when my friends leave innisdale and other things like that. and i think that i realized i'm okay by myself. i like that i don't need anyone other than myself.
so i after this i didn't really feel like seeing anyone so i went to the library and found a new book to read.
tonight i'm going to newmarket and maybe i'll see gill but probably not.
i'm kind of dissapointed with myself at how selfish i'm being about this situation but i do understand that is pretty much just the way that i am now. and maybe doing something or just thinking for yourself, making my own decisions, is something i should do more often.
i feel bad because i don't want to hurt her. but i don't want to have this drag on, because i think that eventually we will both be happy.