Jul 02, 2010 23:25
Yesterday I had the really unpleasant realization that... my parents are right. I am being lazy. I'd been sitting on two job applications for almost two weeks because I didn't feel like hauling out my external hard drive to get my employer information -- which wasn't even there, it was on my internet laptop. And instead of filling those out, I've been solving sudoku puzzles (which I'm getting pretty good at, actually), watching Bones, and doing RPs that tend to get kicked off with one of those back and forth "what do you want to RP," "I don't know, what do you want to RP" conversations. With the exception of one drawing and some work on fics here and there, I have done nothing remotely productive. And that's just pathetically irresponsible.
Anyone. Who is old enough to graduate from high school. Should do something. With their time. Something that actually counts.
Putting off things that need to be done (running a dishwasher, bringing the mail in from the mailbox, making a grocery run, filling out job applications) shouldn't be forgotten or just plain ignored simply because I don't feel like doing them. A lot of the time I'm bad about that, but I'm trying. I'm getting a lot better about doing dishes (here, which is obnoxious here because it takes five minutes for the kitchen sink water to run hot and the sink and drying rack are each the size of a postage stamp), I remembered to get the mail to day at least, I emptied the dry dishes from the dishwasher, etc. These aren't accomplishments; these are basic things that need to be done. I’d have to do these things if I was living on my own anyway. So those don’t even count as accomplishments, or productive. Those are baseline.
My parents want me to get another job. I whine that I already have two, but, honestly, if I were to try and live off the money I make from those I would be in a box. Nibbling on the cardboard edges for sustenance. So I turned in two applications at local restaurants today and have a third filled out for open interviews on Monday, another application I'm planning on filling out online, and at least one other option to look into. Not to mention I need to consider which other restaurants I should ask to apply to. So that's a start, and -- most importantly -- that's what I need to do in order to move away from the annoying nagging anyway.
And seriously. They put me through a really expensive college, and I've owed it to them to make a real effort to be productive since they started doing that. That's how everyone should feel towards anyone who is paying their way.
I'm still going to whine, probably, but I'm trying to be better about actually doing things.