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I'm so gangsta! I got on a big gold chain, blingy earrings, saggy pants....nigga what!
Sorry, had to get that out of my system.
I'm in school now, doing very good in three classes, and bad in two. Math is because I am terrible and my teachers is a sexist douche. The other, which I'm supposed to be in right now is History before 1865. The trouble really isn't the material, I made an 84 on the last test, the trouble comes from my lack of motivation to go to that class. I have two classes from 12-2pm and it doesn't start until 3:30. So wtf do I want to sit around on campus for? I go home to "get some lunch" then go back to class. That worked for the first 3 weeks of school. Then I just stopped going. Its just so boring though!
My mom told me that she wants to live long enough to see me graduate with honors.
WOW right.
My parents expect me to do so well, and its not like I'm a dumbass or anything. I'm just lazy I guess. Maybe I would do better in online classes? I don't know....I did ok in them before.
Anyways, I've been dating this guy Kyle for a while. 6 months or so. He thinks its alot more serious that it is...like marriage and kids serious. But whatever, its cool for now.
My mental health hasn't been that great latley. I've been doing alot of drugs (which is a good thing to me) but I've been very up and down. My therapist has me on some meds, but I dont think they've started to work yet.
I don't know what else to say, I'm just feeling pressured, guilty, and ashamed.
Sorry, had to get that out of my system.
I'm in school now, doing very good in three classes, and bad in two. Math is because I am terrible and my teachers is a sexist douche. The other, which I'm supposed to be in right now is History before 1865. The trouble really isn't the material, I made an 84 on the last test, the trouble comes from my lack of motivation to go to that class. I have two classes from 12-2pm and it doesn't start until 3:30. So wtf do I want to sit around on campus for? I go home to "get some lunch" then go back to class. That worked for the first 3 weeks of school. Then I just stopped going. Its just so boring though!
My mom told me that she wants to live long enough to see me graduate with honors.
WOW right.
My parents expect me to do so well, and its not like I'm a dumbass or anything. I'm just lazy I guess. Maybe I would do better in online classes? I don't know....I did ok in them before.
Anyways, I've been dating this guy Kyle for a while. 6 months or so. He thinks its alot more serious that it is...like marriage and kids serious. But whatever, its cool for now.
My mental health hasn't been that great latley. I've been doing alot of drugs (which is a good thing to me) but I've been very up and down. My therapist has me on some meds, but I dont think they've started to work yet.
I don't know what else to say, I'm just feeling pressured, guilty, and ashamed.