Well.
I am sorry to my friends for not writing a detailed entry in a long time.
There are some new stuff happening in my life as of now.
I'm finally in a band now. We've only got one practice in, which was last Wednesday, and we didn't do much except try to find a song to cover, but we are getting there, hopefully. My friends asked me to join and I was so excited, that I automatically accepted. It's not a death metal band, but I am more openminded, so it does not really matter. All of us are in the same guitar class, so it's real good. I play lead guitar in the band, my friend Gianmany plays rhythm, my friend Marcos is on vocals, my friend Oscar (who's also in Jazz Band with me, he is the second guitarist in Jazz, though) is on bass, and my friend Juan is on drums. My friend says the band was called Mannequin Thieves, but I am not sure if it was official or not. Our next practice will be next Wednesday (it did not happen yesterday because Marcos could not make it).
Stephanie. My feelings for her are not doing anything except getting deeper and deeper. I can officially say that I love her more than I have loved any of my exes even when I was going out with them, and me and Stephanie are not even going out. I haven't seen her in around 8 months, and I have been liking her for ALMOST A YEAR. CONSECUTIVELY. I just can't help it. She is unlike anyone I have ever met. Though I just feel kinda scared to say everything. How I genuinely feel about her. How badly I want her to be my girlfriend. How badly I just want to hold her and kiss her. How she is on my mind more than anyone else. How I'd give anything just to put my hand in hers. I am afraid that if I do, she will just have a negative reaction towards it all instead of feeling loved. Having these feelings on the surface of me for a while already takes its toll. October 10th is her mother's interview, and depending on how it goes, she may or may not come back to the US. I am just praying, giving all hope, all confidence, to her coming back to me. I just want to embrace her again. I liked her before she left to Brazil, but I realized that she made me whole after she left. She just seems so perfect. Yeah, I've said this about pretty much all three girls I have been with, but with Stephanie, I just know it. She is just so amazingly beautiful, smart, funny, all you'd ever want. I am starting to get over the the fact that the guys over there want her too. Though I know, I want her more than any guy over there in Brazil. She has an amazing body, but I don't want her just to fuck her, unlike 50% of males. I actually want to love her. I just....I don't know. I don't know what I would do if her mom does not have a good interview.
There are some new stuff happening in my life as of now.
I'm finally in a band now. We've only got one practice in, which was last Wednesday, and we didn't do much except try to find a song to cover, but we are getting there, hopefully. My friends asked me to join and I was so excited, that I automatically accepted. It's not a death metal band, but I am more openminded, so it does not really matter. All of us are in the same guitar class, so it's real good. I play lead guitar in the band, my friend Gianmany plays rhythm, my friend Marcos is on vocals, my friend Oscar (who's also in Jazz Band with me, he is the second guitarist in Jazz, though) is on bass, and my friend Juan is on drums. My friend says the band was called Mannequin Thieves, but I am not sure if it was official or not. Our next practice will be next Wednesday (it did not happen yesterday because Marcos could not make it).
Stephanie. My feelings for her are not doing anything except getting deeper and deeper. I can officially say that I love her more than I have loved any of my exes even when I was going out with them, and me and Stephanie are not even going out. I haven't seen her in around 8 months, and I have been liking her for ALMOST A YEAR. CONSECUTIVELY. I just can't help it. She is unlike anyone I have ever met. Though I just feel kinda scared to say everything. How I genuinely feel about her. How badly I want her to be my girlfriend. How badly I just want to hold her and kiss her. How she is on my mind more than anyone else. How I'd give anything just to put my hand in hers. I am afraid that if I do, she will just have a negative reaction towards it all instead of feeling loved. Having these feelings on the surface of me for a while already takes its toll. October 10th is her mother's interview, and depending on how it goes, she may or may not come back to the US. I am just praying, giving all hope, all confidence, to her coming back to me. I just want to embrace her again. I liked her before she left to Brazil, but I realized that she made me whole after she left. She just seems so perfect. Yeah, I've said this about pretty much all three girls I have been with, but with Stephanie, I just know it. She is just so amazingly beautiful, smart, funny, all you'd ever want. I am starting to get over the the fact that the guys over there want her too. Though I know, I want her more than any guy over there in Brazil. She has an amazing body, but I don't want her just to fuck her, unlike 50% of males. I actually want to love her. I just....I don't know. I don't know what I would do if her mom does not have a good interview.