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and i fall.... my heart hurts so much, you all made a mess of me. i woke up at 9 pm and cried for the first time ever about any of my friends dieing, does it really take this long to realize that they will never ever be back at all? i guess i was really bad in a past life since im having horrible things happen to me in this one. i try my hardest to keep my chin up but i guess at some point its going to fall. i need somthing better then this, i need to be by myself for a while, if you notice me not updateing its fine i think im going to be bymyself for a while i need to find something more fullfilling then a machine that i can hide behind.