fuck you : ]
7 more days till college applacation deadlines. it all feels so real now, finally ill get to see where all my hard work will lead me to. im so excited. 4 months and ill be knowing where ill be attending and heading to. then just 10 months and ill be leaving this place (downey). im ready to move on, i have been for a long time. but it just doesnt seem to be so easy when your stuck where the drama and memories never go away. i think i need to get away from somethings and some people for awhile. even being around i have found how people i never expected and trusted so much always have a second side.
i have a lot of plans for me. they just have to hold on for now cause too many things are holding me down. in less than three months now ill be turning 18 (feb 1st). no ones going to stop me then. thanks to all the people who didnt have patients with me and were greedy, and full of pride. i really think im a mature girl for my age who knows what she wants. i see other girls out there who act so stupid and make themselves look like fools, but yet always get what they want. maybe its just cause they're the easier ones. im not saying this for any special reason, it just came to mind. maybe i do have a reason. i think i finally need something good to happen in my life. i mean i give so much of myself to just be played around with and not taken seriously (not just by guys, but by "friends" too). i think its casue they dont always get what they want from me. you know those kind of people who just use you for something. they coat everything up so nice, but then just smash you out of no where. im tired of all the bullshit that has happened and all the stupid mistakes i have made for beeing so blind by meaningless words.
i have a lot of plans for me. they just have to hold on for now cause too many things are holding me down. in less than three months now ill be turning 18 (feb 1st). no ones going to stop me then. thanks to all the people who didnt have patients with me and were greedy, and full of pride. i really think im a mature girl for my age who knows what she wants. i see other girls out there who act so stupid and make themselves look like fools, but yet always get what they want. maybe its just cause they're the easier ones. im not saying this for any special reason, it just came to mind. maybe i do have a reason. i think i finally need something good to happen in my life. i mean i give so much of myself to just be played around with and not taken seriously (not just by guys, but by "friends" too). i think its casue they dont always get what they want from me. you know those kind of people who just use you for something. they coat everything up so nice, but then just smash you out of no where. im tired of all the bullshit that has happened and all the stupid mistakes i have made for beeing so blind by meaningless words.