fun times with facebook
you go to your facebook wall, and they have that little, you know, "people you might know"
mostly people from the year you graduated high school from
and I saw this picture of a baby's face
my knee-jerk reaction is to think
"oh god who popped one out"
and then you hover over the picture
"firstname lastname"
and you're like oh that name sounds familiar
so you go to their wall
click on "pictures"
and see pictures of this trashy bitch from high school
(and when I say bitch I mean, like, one of those really mean catty girls who are all OMG SHOES)
...who still looks trashy as hell
a couple things go through my head
the first thing is
dude...I still feel like a kid. yeah, sure, I'm in big ole college n'stuff and I drive myself wherever I want to and all those relatively new freedoms I get because I've gotten to [x] stage in my life
I can't imagine having a kid on top of all these newfound responsibilities
shit, I haven't even had a significantly long-term romantic relationship
the second thing is
was this your goal in life? because in high school it was pretty obvious how you slept in class and were late to all of them and skipped the maximum number of classes before punishment had to be made that you didn't give a shit about college or even a decent career
being a parent, is that what you wanted to be?
the third thing is
boy I feel bad for that kid. can't imagine being a child of an unmarried, ungraduated mother. I'd feel like I was a mistake. an oops. a broken condom.
I'm reminded of this woman I ran across while hanging out with a friend at the mall--a woman my friend new
we'd somehow quickly ran into the topic of having children, and I had expressed my desire to not have children until I'm well into my thirties and knee-deep in a lucrative career.
she said to me, "well, then comes the "unexpected change" in your life!"
as if pregnancy is some sort of spontaneous disease that women pick up
regardless of their goals and standards and morals and knowledge of contraceptives
it's kind of pointless for me to be wound up about such a thing
but whatever