Apr 04, 2009 06:29
OK, after a lot of introspection, I realize one thing: she's not the woman of my dreams.
This comes as a bit of a blow to me, given all the psychological effort invested over the past few years. Even still, I realize, she's something far more important:
Sure, the girl of my dreams may be some anorexic nubile thing who occasionally has pillow fights with her friends in scantily-clad pyjamas. I'm sure this woman is anything but. (And for those who argue about my alleged love for the skinny girls, well, consider this: I like to juggle things. Chainsaws, skinny women, whatever. It's all the same, right?)
At any rate, she's not the girl of my dreams. The girl of my dreams probably would fawn on me a bit more, maybe even bring me soup on days I feel sick. But you know what?
She may not be the girl of my dreams, but she's just the woman I need. It's funny like that.
So instead of having pillowfights with me having to come in and play "referee," I'm finding out that there's someone who's making me feel like a better person, to want to be a better person. That in fact validates my existence without saying a word as to how great I am.
Sometimes, as trite as it sounds, it's not getting what you want, but realizing that right there in front of you, you have what you need.