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I cant say anything really inporant happen in my life today. I ate Taco bell for the first time in 2 years I used to crave it so much.
I think I like craving thins and day dreaming about things then actually living it.
Things are so much better when you crave them you build them up in your head and day dream about how perfect they would be if you just had them, nothing is a let down in your day dream.
Only when you live the day dream you are let down. I don't think its the thing or even the person that I may have daydreamed about that lets me down .... its myself.
Today I slept thought a bunch of texts messages and missed my morning breakfast with kc and steph. which is strange because i love morning diner moments more then most things in life.
Then I woke up to screaming children . Stupid Daycare just out side my window.
Then I went to the mall and walked around for a bit it was nice then I met steph for taco bell. then went off to work.
Where i had to put up with even more screaming children, I dont know what it is but I just could not do it today, I can normally put on a fack happy smile and tickle all these i hate but today I wanted to punch them in the head...I mean it.
I metup with steph again after work and we saw a movie with her brother and his friend. it was a scary movie I was biting my nails.
This life that I day dreamed about its not that great. Now I day dream about the moments where I used to daydream about home.
trenton this weekend. Trenton is always a day dream its about mymost daydreamed thing other then fall out boy. Its always a let down. Well not always I love my friends there but it was just so amazing one summer and now it can never live up to that.
I am going to do all the things a daydreamed about even the ones I know will never be as good as my daydream...just so there is no more "what ifs" .
good night
I think I like craving thins and day dreaming about things then actually living it.
Things are so much better when you crave them you build them up in your head and day dream about how perfect they would be if you just had them, nothing is a let down in your day dream.
Only when you live the day dream you are let down. I don't think its the thing or even the person that I may have daydreamed about that lets me down .... its myself.
Today I slept thought a bunch of texts messages and missed my morning breakfast with kc and steph. which is strange because i love morning diner moments more then most things in life.
Then I woke up to screaming children . Stupid Daycare just out side my window.
Then I went to the mall and walked around for a bit it was nice then I met steph for taco bell. then went off to work.
Where i had to put up with even more screaming children, I dont know what it is but I just could not do it today, I can normally put on a fack happy smile and tickle all these i hate but today I wanted to punch them in the head...I mean it.
I metup with steph again after work and we saw a movie with her brother and his friend. it was a scary movie I was biting my nails.
This life that I day dreamed about its not that great. Now I day dream about the moments where I used to daydream about home.
trenton this weekend. Trenton is always a day dream its about mymost daydreamed thing other then fall out boy. Its always a let down. Well not always I love my friends there but it was just so amazing one summer and now it can never live up to that.
I am going to do all the things a daydreamed about even the ones I know will never be as good as my daydream...just so there is no more "what ifs" .
good night