Usually, the only nightmares that really get to me are the ones in which good things happen (Pam is still alive, my pets are still around, etc.), because then waking up is painful
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Kids need to get picked on, excluded, etc. It's part of learning what people are like, and how to interact with them.
It's really easy to add up the list of 'things that made me this fucked up', but why bother? You acknowledge them when you come across them, maybe make a personal note in a paper journal or with whoever it is you talk to about these kinds of things - and then you, like, you know, deal with it - because you still have to wake up the next moning, and brush your teeth.
I remember how much it upset you but... god, it's okay. Some people are born into terrible situations, and both you and Arden were born into loving families. I remember how much your parents have always cared about you, and then Arden has the extra benefit of having a much-older sister. I lost a parent, and that doesn't ever change, but it's fucked up how much pressure there is on having a set 'family'. What messes me up usually is rarely remembering my mom and missing her, but seeing other people's moms and being jealous that they still have that, casually call, etc. - but there's no point in that. I have other people in my life now, like YOU, and when that's what you've got it doesn't help to worry about it. Your dad will be there for how long he can be.
My brother James and I have been talking a lot this week about how it's not worth worrying about things before they happen - because you can't prepare for it. It's easier to deal with afterwards, when you have to.
It's really easy to add up the list of 'things that made me this fucked up', but why bother? You acknowledge them when you come across them, maybe make a personal note in a paper journal or with whoever it is you talk to about these kinds of things - and then you, like, you know, deal with it - because you still have to wake up the next moning, and brush your teeth.
I remember how much it upset you but... god, it's okay. Some people are born into terrible situations, and both you and Arden were born into loving families. I remember how much your parents have always cared about you, and then Arden has the extra benefit of having a much-older sister. I lost a parent, and that doesn't ever change, but it's fucked up how much pressure there is on having a set 'family'. What messes me up usually is rarely remembering my mom and missing her, but seeing other people's moms and being jealous that they still have that, casually call, etc. - but there's no point in that. I have other people in my life now, like YOU, and when that's what you've got it doesn't help to worry about it. Your dad will be there for how long he can be.
My brother James and I have been talking a lot this week about how it's not worth worrying about things before they happen - because you can't prepare for it. It's easier to deal with afterwards, when you have to.
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