new stuff... LONG!!
well... it's been a bit since i've written in this thing.. weird! Well let's see... me and gary went and heard the heart beat last wednesday. It was awesome to see gary's face. He said that it sounded like pac man because it was like... wompah wompah wompah. He wrote a blog about it saying that he was taken back by it and was anxious for june to be here. It really made me excited to see him so happy about all of the things going on. Right now it's the size of a peach, and my stomach can vouch for that. It's so tight all the time, and if i'm sitting or laying down and i go to get up too fast, it pinches and hurts. Gotta take it slow, and i'm not a slow moving person, so it's going to take some discipline. But things are going quite well with the baby.
About my job.. ha ha ha. Well apparently the crazy old woman up front has been spying on me, and told the boss (Rod) that I was on the phone for an "extended" amount of time throughout the week he wasn't here. Rod brought me in his office and asked me about this and I was bluntly honest with him. I told him that, yes, I did have phone calls, of course I'm going to have phone calls. My doctor's and family can only get a hold of me during the day using my work, but "extended" is another story. i asked him exactly how I could have been shown it was long unless they were eavesdropping and not doing their own work, or if they weren't standing there and timing me? He just said that he understands and that he doesn't want to get rid of me on a hearsay. I told him that I don't think it's fair that all of my work is always done, and is perfect, which he totally agreed on, in yet he wants to fire me for a "hearsay" phone call? Didn't make any sense to me. Well I told him that I was already looking for a new job because I don't like the fact that I'm being "watched" at my job. He understood and told me he'd give me a good reference. I'm still here, unfortunately, but the resumes are out man! I'm excited really, but kinda sad at the same time. Me and this girl Kim that used to be my boss is sad that I'm leaving. When Rod asked her about it she said that she hasn't noticed and that I'm always working so she doesn't see how it's possible to be on the phone. She's in the office right across from me so she hears everything anyway. But in the beginning of this job I busted my ass to learn everything that I had to do, and now that I have.... they want to get rid of me. Kind of ironic I guess. But either way, things happen for reasons, and it's not like I don't have enough skill and experience under my belt to not be able to find SOMETHING. So i'm optimistic about it.
My mom's going to pop soon man. She's due on friday, but if she doesn't go into labor then she's going to be induced. I am SO excited about having a little sister man. I never really got to hold my little brother, hell, I didn't get to do SHIT with my little brother. So this is pretty much the first time that I'm going to be able to be a big sister. It's also going to give me a little practice for my own baby. My granny said that she had a dream that it's going to be a boy, and my granny is pretty much ALWAYS right. I told gary that and he said that he guesses granny's gonna be wrong for once. I don't care either way, I just want a healthy baby.
I go for my colposcopy on wednesday so that they can see if I have cervical cancer or not. I'm nervous about that. It's not like it's a normal check up or anything because they already found something weird about my cells, so they're checking to see what it is. There's a chance that it's cancer, but it's small. Then again, how many people get cancer everyday... no matter WHAT the "slim chances" are? Amanda said that she would go with me... and I think gary's gonna go too. But they're going to be in the waiting room. I'm not exactly comfortable with having 2 people sitting in the same room that I'm being spread open with a metal clamp and have some random lady look through a big ass microscope to look in my cervix. Sorry. But I'm sure I'll be ok, but I'm still nervous. Gary has taught me a lot about being nervous/scared about things. He tells me not to worry about them until they're here. But I'm the kind of person who needs to have all scenarios figured out and go in ready, but this causes me to stress over it, so I'm trying to find a happy median. But like i said... i'm sure i'll be fine.
For whoever reads my journals will know about a thing that happened to me a few months ago when I thought i had a "ghost encounter" because gary said that's what it was. Then the doctor told me that it was a nervous break down. Well I found out sunday that it's called "sleep paralysis". Gary gets it too and he found it. I don't feel like explaining it, but at least I have a name for it now. Hasn't happened in a while, but either way, at least i know it's not a GHOST... gary.
Welp, i'm sitting here at work, and not doing anything, which is fine by me, not like I'll be here soon anyway. Alright... time to find something to do kiddies. I doubt anyone read all of this... but if you did... YAH! I'll give you like a quarter or something! PZ OUT NUGGETS!
About my job.. ha ha ha. Well apparently the crazy old woman up front has been spying on me, and told the boss (Rod) that I was on the phone for an "extended" amount of time throughout the week he wasn't here. Rod brought me in his office and asked me about this and I was bluntly honest with him. I told him that, yes, I did have phone calls, of course I'm going to have phone calls. My doctor's and family can only get a hold of me during the day using my work, but "extended" is another story. i asked him exactly how I could have been shown it was long unless they were eavesdropping and not doing their own work, or if they weren't standing there and timing me? He just said that he understands and that he doesn't want to get rid of me on a hearsay. I told him that I don't think it's fair that all of my work is always done, and is perfect, which he totally agreed on, in yet he wants to fire me for a "hearsay" phone call? Didn't make any sense to me. Well I told him that I was already looking for a new job because I don't like the fact that I'm being "watched" at my job. He understood and told me he'd give me a good reference. I'm still here, unfortunately, but the resumes are out man! I'm excited really, but kinda sad at the same time. Me and this girl Kim that used to be my boss is sad that I'm leaving. When Rod asked her about it she said that she hasn't noticed and that I'm always working so she doesn't see how it's possible to be on the phone. She's in the office right across from me so she hears everything anyway. But in the beginning of this job I busted my ass to learn everything that I had to do, and now that I have.... they want to get rid of me. Kind of ironic I guess. But either way, things happen for reasons, and it's not like I don't have enough skill and experience under my belt to not be able to find SOMETHING. So i'm optimistic about it.
My mom's going to pop soon man. She's due on friday, but if she doesn't go into labor then she's going to be induced. I am SO excited about having a little sister man. I never really got to hold my little brother, hell, I didn't get to do SHIT with my little brother. So this is pretty much the first time that I'm going to be able to be a big sister. It's also going to give me a little practice for my own baby. My granny said that she had a dream that it's going to be a boy, and my granny is pretty much ALWAYS right. I told gary that and he said that he guesses granny's gonna be wrong for once. I don't care either way, I just want a healthy baby.
I go for my colposcopy on wednesday so that they can see if I have cervical cancer or not. I'm nervous about that. It's not like it's a normal check up or anything because they already found something weird about my cells, so they're checking to see what it is. There's a chance that it's cancer, but it's small. Then again, how many people get cancer everyday... no matter WHAT the "slim chances" are? Amanda said that she would go with me... and I think gary's gonna go too. But they're going to be in the waiting room. I'm not exactly comfortable with having 2 people sitting in the same room that I'm being spread open with a metal clamp and have some random lady look through a big ass microscope to look in my cervix. Sorry. But I'm sure I'll be ok, but I'm still nervous. Gary has taught me a lot about being nervous/scared about things. He tells me not to worry about them until they're here. But I'm the kind of person who needs to have all scenarios figured out and go in ready, but this causes me to stress over it, so I'm trying to find a happy median. But like i said... i'm sure i'll be fine.
For whoever reads my journals will know about a thing that happened to me a few months ago when I thought i had a "ghost encounter" because gary said that's what it was. Then the doctor told me that it was a nervous break down. Well I found out sunday that it's called "sleep paralysis". Gary gets it too and he found it. I don't feel like explaining it, but at least I have a name for it now. Hasn't happened in a while, but either way, at least i know it's not a GHOST... gary.
Welp, i'm sitting here at work, and not doing anything, which is fine by me, not like I'll be here soon anyway. Alright... time to find something to do kiddies. I doubt anyone read all of this... but if you did... YAH! I'll give you like a quarter or something! PZ OUT NUGGETS!