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[munkybee]

you think you know dramatic? my roommate moved out because of me...wow...ok let me clue you in...there are four of us...names get confusing so we shall go with numbers...i am 1, and then there is 2, 3, and 4...i was close with 2 at the beginning of the year and all was well...2 and i shared alot in common, thus becomming "thick as theives", however i fell into the trap of being over-judgemental...i was in complete control and brought it on myself...3 joined a sorority, making her different from me and 2, so 2 and I viewed ourselves as better because we didn't have to "buy our friends"...mond you, i know i was completely wrong and admit that and regret that...3 took me to chapel hill to jordan, making me really like her, seeing how she took me to something i love...well 2 broke up with her boyfriend again recently and was rather upset...i gave her her space because that is how i deal with things...on my own...however, me and 3 got close (i am VERY thankful) when we went to chapel hill. i saw how mean i had been and apologized...i told her how i had been very wrong to be so negative about the sorority, and all was well...i broke down that unneccessary wall i had built in the first week of school...2, however, did not like that i know saw the good in 3 and got along with her so well...she was, to put it blunt, jealous, and being the type of person who is used to having people do generally what she wants, was very unhappy that i didn't...well...apologize for...well...making another friend? yea i was a little speechless...apparently, what i did was "unforgivable" and i was making her life miserable because i haven't bent over backwards to force conversation with her...anyway, 2 moved out this afternoon...friday morning she had me sign the request, and i did, after i asked her if i was the reason or the room size was the reason. of course she said the room, however four shared with me how 2 had said 3 and i were the reasons for her departure. 3 is moving out after christmas into her sorority, creating alot more space in our room, yet 2 oddly couldn't stand another 3 weeks in this "terrible" room...i feel bad for 3, because she has done nothing, and is not a bad person in any way. it all comes down to me and how this is my "fault" and how 2 wanted me to beg her for forgiveness for my "sin". the only thing i will apologize for in any of this is how close-minded i was at the beginning of the year and how quick i was to jump on the bandwagon and judge...i was wrong...i wasn't a good friend then, but i am starting over...i am now and adult and i can choose my friends...and it's great

hope you aren't too confused