august 3rd
2 wks left and this is what happens ...i know i fcked up and i know she doesnt deserve any of this but i cant see myself with out her ...i know that i dont appreciate her as much as i use to and its my fault...i know i still love her and i know i cant be without her ...i know that things happen for a reason to teach us lessons about things that cant be taught through talk or seeing it happen to someone else but through self-experience...i hope it all gets better soon because even though saying bye just for a few days to give each other space might be for the best its the hardest thing ive done...i cant even go a few hours without talking to her and now its going to be a few days...i cant be in this town right now because everything reminds me of her...im leaving to my brothers for the next week or so to get my mind off things and to get it straight... i guess ill spend time with marcos, jess, aubrie and my cousins before i leave off to college and i can go see my dad one last time...hopefully everything will be better by next week...i cant imagine leaving on a bad note with the one person that has loved me soo much...if youre reading this and you know who you are i love you so much and im sorry for everything ive put you through...