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part of me says... youve got to stop writting about this child in this journal, people are going to get tired of hearing about it
the other part of me says, not an hour goes by without him being on my mind, and if i need to get it out, its my journal and i will. hehe
i wish i could save you
who knows, maybe one day soon i can
im only so big... all i can do is take a day at a time
your laugh ricoches off the walls in my head
your innocent smile haunts me
are you smiling right now?
sometimes it almost scares me that the Lord has laid you so heavily on my heart
why would i feel so burdened if everything was ok?
you deserve the best little one...
i can only pray that you are getting what you deserve
But not so with Jacob... the Lord WILL have compassion on Jacob.. Isaiah 14:1
I know the Lord has promised that one day you will come out on top... i just dont want you to have to suffer anymore before you get to that place.
me: "dad cps took him"
dad: "WHAT? hes in foster care??? thats horrible! do we need to go get him??"
next day
me: "did you seriously mean we can go get him"
dad: "we? you live in dallas"
me: "ok ummm you? until summer then ill be here"
dad: "talk to your mom, she would be the one that would take care of him the most"
... i cant get my hopes up... but i can get on my knees. God is this Your plan??? please bring clarity to my family... we've know for a while that this might be coming... is it right?
on a lighter note... CRUISE TOMORROW!!!!! i cant freaking wait! its gana be amazing! time to finish packing...!
the other part of me says, not an hour goes by without him being on my mind, and if i need to get it out, its my journal and i will. hehe
i wish i could save you
who knows, maybe one day soon i can
im only so big... all i can do is take a day at a time
your laugh ricoches off the walls in my head
your innocent smile haunts me
are you smiling right now?
sometimes it almost scares me that the Lord has laid you so heavily on my heart
why would i feel so burdened if everything was ok?
you deserve the best little one...
i can only pray that you are getting what you deserve
But not so with Jacob... the Lord WILL have compassion on Jacob.. Isaiah 14:1
I know the Lord has promised that one day you will come out on top... i just dont want you to have to suffer anymore before you get to that place.
me: "dad cps took him"
dad: "WHAT? hes in foster care??? thats horrible! do we need to go get him??"
next day
me: "did you seriously mean we can go get him"
dad: "we? you live in dallas"
me: "ok ummm you? until summer then ill be here"
dad: "talk to your mom, she would be the one that would take care of him the most"
... i cant get my hopes up... but i can get on my knees. God is this Your plan??? please bring clarity to my family... we've know for a while that this might be coming... is it right?
on a lighter note... CRUISE TOMORROW!!!!! i cant freaking wait! its gana be amazing! time to finish packing...!