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I talked last night with becca (roomie) about everything that's been going on with ALL the shit the last few months. She just said "WOW". I really care for heather alot, and have missed her so much over the last 8 months. She said she didn't want to loose contact with me and tried to give me her Email addy and such, but I told her "NO". It just hurt to much at the time after i set myself up to get squashed. Instead of an email, I think i'll see if they is willing to write a real letter a week back and forth. I think it holds more meaning that way and lets her know that she does matter to me. I want it to be harder than it should be, to make sure that i really want it. Its just going to be hard because we have always been very flerty with each other and I will not be able to do that. If anyone thinks i shouldn't do this please say so. I just fear that i'm going to keep hurting myself with keeping in contact with her like this, because i know that i'm going to just be waiting on her. Just waiting on her to become single again and hurting myself the whole time..