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Well... I was planning on working out and laying out to try and get some color in my white ass... But, gotta love Florida Weather and its freaking lighting. It's not in my best interest to be out on the back pad lifting (metal) weights, with a metal roof on it... That just screams bad idea in my head.. I know, I know... When has that ever stopped me from doing something. Its called old age... I feel like I'm freaking 50 years old... Always tired even tho i have been making myself work out 4-5 days a week now... I just hope to see some good come from the lifting. 8( I still feel so alone here in this world. I read my lil bio for LJ.. Dam it hits right at home for me. Sometimes its hard knowing you have so much to give but nothing is able to spark it..
Something else I have come to know about myself. I'm VERY shallow. From the time I was 16 to about 25. I was a pretty boy and all that other stuff. I have come to know now, that its not all about the outside. I spend so much time stressing about the outside.. I don't work on the inside. I want to find that person that when I look at them now. All i can think of is Hawt dam.. That same person would get the same reaction from me 30 years from now. Its not all about the body. Its about the way the person feels inside my head. What I mean by "in my head" is.. I would see the person and see everything. Only one word can say what i'm thinking and its "Home"...
Something else I have come to know about myself. I'm VERY shallow. From the time I was 16 to about 25. I was a pretty boy and all that other stuff. I have come to know now, that its not all about the outside. I spend so much time stressing about the outside.. I don't work on the inside. I want to find that person that when I look at them now. All i can think of is Hawt dam.. That same person would get the same reaction from me 30 years from now. Its not all about the body. Its about the way the person feels inside my head. What I mean by "in my head" is.. I would see the person and see everything. Only one word can say what i'm thinking and its "Home"...