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Today is just a strange day for me. I am a lil tight in my shoulders and back from my first day back to working out yesterday. I'm taking today off from working out, but I will return tomorrow on my day off to the weights. Its not a bad tightness. A long missed one to be honest. I want to try and find a local GYM that has a pool with a some kind of swimming program that i can do b4 i go to work. IF i can find that I will be so much better...
Sad part is that I keep just thinking about girls. I want to be comfortable in my own skin again. The worst part about that is that the more i learn about myself. The more i realize that for me to be comfortable in my own skin it seems that i need to get att from females... I think. Its how it seems.
I just feel that if i walk by a girl that i find attractive and just look at her and smile at her in passing and she smiles back not wanting to break eye contact until the point that she would have to fully turn around. It just lights up my day and makes me feel comfortable. That seems so sad just reading it... I should be able to feel comfortable in my skin with out needing anyone else. I just want to feel attractive and wanted. One of the greatest things I would ever want would be someone that I have someone in my life that if i sat down next to her. It would take every bit of restraint she has on her actions to not reach out and just touch me. Not sexual. Just to feel the warmth of my skin under her hands and know its me. I want that person in my life that i feel the same way about. That my hands itch just to touch her and have her near me.
On a diff note. I know i have the drive to get in shape again i now it. I want to have my 6 pack back. Thats what i want to see so bad, and DAMiT i'm going to get them back. I know that i'll feel better all around by getting inshape.
Sad part is that I keep just thinking about girls. I want to be comfortable in my own skin again. The worst part about that is that the more i learn about myself. The more i realize that for me to be comfortable in my own skin it seems that i need to get att from females... I think. Its how it seems.
I just feel that if i walk by a girl that i find attractive and just look at her and smile at her in passing and she smiles back not wanting to break eye contact until the point that she would have to fully turn around. It just lights up my day and makes me feel comfortable. That seems so sad just reading it... I should be able to feel comfortable in my skin with out needing anyone else. I just want to feel attractive and wanted. One of the greatest things I would ever want would be someone that I have someone in my life that if i sat down next to her. It would take every bit of restraint she has on her actions to not reach out and just touch me. Not sexual. Just to feel the warmth of my skin under her hands and know its me. I want that person in my life that i feel the same way about. That my hands itch just to touch her and have her near me.
On a diff note. I know i have the drive to get in shape again i now it. I want to have my 6 pack back. Thats what i want to see so bad, and DAMiT i'm going to get them back. I know that i'll feel better all around by getting inshape.