IM TIRED OF BEING ALONE....so hurry up and get here....
i just got the worst feeling ever. im at the library, and i thought what happened wouldnt have been such a big deal. i mean, we're over, but i was half glad he did it. but now im like. wow. i just totally wasted what was supposed to be happy and awesome. but it wasnt. now i feel like im going to cry. i hate that feeling....i always get it when i think about him. like my stomach is getting twisted and like my eyes are going to overflow. but then i remember that i dont cry in public and i compose myself.
so on a different note, my house looks pretty. my dad has painted the front and the two sides and the front of the garage, and it looks fab.
uh oh. i just got that feeling again.
my lesson on saturday morning was probably the highlight of my week. i rode jack, and the last course we did was sooooooo shitty (position wise) but SOOOOOOO MUCH FUN otherwise. we SPED around the outdoor, and i guess i freaked everyone else out.we werent even doing jumps that were that high, but jack thought that they were like puissance walls. itwas SO fun.
then the phone call happened. whatever. im choosing not to talk about this. it stings still.
ill write more prolly wensday. im not happy.
laters all.
so on a different note, my house looks pretty. my dad has painted the front and the two sides and the front of the garage, and it looks fab.
uh oh. i just got that feeling again.
my lesson on saturday morning was probably the highlight of my week. i rode jack, and the last course we did was sooooooo shitty (position wise) but SOOOOOOO MUCH FUN otherwise. we SPED around the outdoor, and i guess i freaked everyone else out.we werent even doing jumps that were that high, but jack thought that they were like puissance walls. itwas SO fun.
then the phone call happened. whatever. im choosing not to talk about this. it stings still.
ill write more prolly wensday. im not happy.
laters all.