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Well hi kids! not much is happening.. well actually a lot has happened but I've probably been too busy or too drunk to realize it. I have realized one thing. I can be a real fucking peice of shit sometimes. Thanks god most of my closest friends alredy know and accpet this asa charatcer flaw that pops up form time to time. The thing is, when I transform into this pile of feces it is rarely others that I end up causing problems for..it's alwyas myself. I should reslly be pretty happy right now...I dont know why I'm so pissed. Maybe it's becua you can't really have a decnt conversation with anyone at this school. maybe it's becuase of all the times I was such a fucking little asshole to my mom and dad Yeah they made some big mistakes but so did I and there were plenty of time s that I could of let shit slide but just kept pushing it further and furthewr uphill. I have this creeping feeling that I am not the good person a lot of people think I am. I mean we all fuck up from time time but I really feel like such an ass. It's nothing specific, just a mixture. A nice little stir fry of shame if you will. I'm sure this will pass.. it's probably the low self esteem talking. My teachers have ben on my case latley becuase I beat myself up and havea lack of confidence. When did my confidence fade?? I mean it was always hiding but it would come out from time to time and shine pretty bright. Sometimes I just want to be a beautiful dumb girl.
Well i do apolpgize for this tirade..wait... no id on't. It's my fucking journal and i'll write what i please. Fuck this. I'm gonna go take a nap and by some nice shampoo after thater dance.
Well hi kids! not much is happening.. well actually a lot has happened but I've probably been too busy or too drunk to realize it. I have realized one thing. I can be a real fucking peice of shit sometimes. Thanks god most of my closest friends alredy know and accpet this asa charatcer flaw that pops up form time to time. The thing is, when I transform into this pile of feces it is rarely others that I end up causing problems for..it's alwyas myself. I should reslly be pretty happy right now...I dont know why I'm so pissed. Maybe it's becua you can't really have a decnt conversation with anyone at this school. maybe it's becuase of all the times I was such a fucking little asshole to my mom and dad Yeah they made some big mistakes but so did I and there were plenty of time s that I could of let shit slide but just kept pushing it further and furthewr uphill. I have this creeping feeling that I am not the good person a lot of people think I am. I mean we all fuck up from time time but I really feel like such an ass. It's nothing specific, just a mixture. A nice little stir fry of shame if you will. I'm sure this will pass.. it's probably the low self esteem talking. My teachers have ben on my case latley becuase I beat myself up and havea lack of confidence. When did my confidence fade?? I mean it was always hiding but it would come out from time to time and shine pretty bright. Sometimes I just want to be a beautiful dumb girl.
Well i do apolpgize for this tirade..wait... no id on't. It's my fucking journal and i'll write what i please. Fuck this. I'm gonna go take a nap and by some nice shampoo after thater dance.