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So I've had this short period of time, where I have been writing really derpessing poems. But you have to agree with me when I say they are quite kick ass. No worries my friends, I'm just taking advantage of being able to write some good stuff while I have been feeling rather glum. And dammit, My Immortal is not helping me to feel any better. But yeah. Here comes another poem. So enjoy, or if you would rather not feel depressed, then...dont...enjoy...cough...sneeze...anyways. Read on! Oh yeah, my new xanga is BrokenBloodyHeart. And my new email, which is mine and mine alone, so send whatever you want to it, is BrokenBloodyHeart@yahoo.com enjoy:
Your presence lingers here
shouting my name
this is what I've always feared
being put to shame.
you know I did this for the better
but you don't seem to understand
you just go by the letter
but you misread what I've said.
You try to make me feel
what I did was not right
but I know that I still
can put up with the fight.
You think it was easy
telling you what I feel
I thought I was crazy
but you said that time could heal.
Time can't do shit
it doesn't talk
I'm not going to take one more hit
I'm just going to walk.
Walk away from the pain of my past
hopefully you will forgive me
I want this pain to stop, but it lasts
I can't tell you everything I used to be.
Emtionally unstable
I don't want to hurt you
you are capable
of hurting me too.
This is somuch bigger
than both of us
we throw around words
but that only weakens my trust.
It's amazing the damage
3 words can do
but the same damage
caused by trying to start over new.
I'm not so sure
about our relationship
I'm not ready
I think i might want to quit.
How do i know
whether or not I can
I'm afraid of getting hurt
and it's possible you can.
I want to be with you
for the rest of my life
but am I ready to start now
when I'm dealing with so much strife.
I'm not mature enough
though I may never be
to have a strong relationship
the relationship of you and me.
Talk to me
tell me that everything is fine
because right now there is going to be
something big happen all in good time.
Help me
I feel so small
tell me it's going to be
me and you standing tall.
But if we can't be
then again it will be me
in solitary
left alone, just me.
-Mindy Wuenschell
Your presence lingers here
shouting my name
this is what I've always feared
being put to shame.
you know I did this for the better
but you don't seem to understand
you just go by the letter
but you misread what I've said.
You try to make me feel
what I did was not right
but I know that I still
can put up with the fight.
You think it was easy
telling you what I feel
I thought I was crazy
but you said that time could heal.
Time can't do shit
it doesn't talk
I'm not going to take one more hit
I'm just going to walk.
Walk away from the pain of my past
hopefully you will forgive me
I want this pain to stop, but it lasts
I can't tell you everything I used to be.
Emtionally unstable
I don't want to hurt you
you are capable
of hurting me too.
This is somuch bigger
than both of us
we throw around words
but that only weakens my trust.
It's amazing the damage
3 words can do
but the same damage
caused by trying to start over new.
I'm not so sure
about our relationship
I'm not ready
I think i might want to quit.
How do i know
whether or not I can
I'm afraid of getting hurt
and it's possible you can.
I want to be with you
for the rest of my life
but am I ready to start now
when I'm dealing with so much strife.
I'm not mature enough
though I may never be
to have a strong relationship
the relationship of you and me.
Talk to me
tell me that everything is fine
because right now there is going to be
something big happen all in good time.
Help me
I feel so small
tell me it's going to be
me and you standing tall.
But if we can't be
then again it will be me
in solitary
left alone, just me.
-Mindy Wuenschell