Um.
I hate when people accuse me of being Emo ... it's like .."oh im sorry i can have actual emotions!" idk that just bothers me ...
concerning other issues I've been grounded. It's not a horrible punishment i've just had to be a suck up and do some extra chores nothing to strenuous at all. Not being able to go online i've noticed i've had a lot more freetime. there were a few moment where i was craving to check this and myspace and now that i've had my fix ... ive realized this is the most pointless creation known to man.
there is so much more to do. that sit at the computer and whine about the little bullshit problems you have. Yes ... i admit i've complained a bit on live journal ... only when i refuse to complin about an issue of mine to anyone person. and thats a part of the reason for having such things. But it is in my opinion that many of us have taken this over board. i hate to sound unsympathetic despit how cynical i've been latly but i just can't stand much more of this drama,and i only can hope that people in college and (as my parents call it) the real world understand that you can deal with your problems in more mature ways.
i sound quite conceited. i hate to make my self seem like i know exactly what i'm talking about. Obviously i don't ive just been observing the most recent outburst of drama and realized how easily most of thses issues could have been avoided if certain people involved in said drama could juast .. grow up.
in another post i mentioned ignorance and stupidity being two major downfalls and its true not just myself but ... possibly for most people. we are all ignorant about something .. we cant possibly retain enough information at this age to be great philosophers of life. ( and when i say information i mean that in general terms including situation which you learn from also known as experience lol) We don't know much about the world or ourselves or others and this ignorance causes conflict. i supposed because many of us are not inqusitive enough we cannot learn about the things we are ignorant about and thus cannot possible avoid such situations .. but then laziness is the problem and not ignorance.
it is my supposition that there are simply to many factors that are involed to completly pinpoint the cause for drama but i do strongly belive that two mojor factors are ignorance and stupidity. emotions are also highly involved but it is very hard to control emotions ... we can ignore them .. which is not always healthy ... or we can train ourselves to stop feeling altogether which is also very unhealthy ... so emotions as a factor is totally chaotic depending on the situation and cannot be avoided in a healthy manner .... i may be compltly wrong in this assumption but all the same its just an opinion.
This is why i say i hate being called emo ... emotions vary from situation to situation and for the most part i see myself as a very laid back, calm individual. Other have also supported this statement without my ever having to ask them. so to tell me that im being outrageous and out of line because i happen to be alittle upset is in itself outrageous and outof line esspecially when this drama happens online where thigns are so impersonal and dissociative that emotions cannot be properly read aside from exclamation points caps and a few emoticons.
how can you properly tell how a person is feeling you can make assumptions but you cant hear their voice see there excitment pain desperatness. you have no idea of defining the degrees of any emotion you only have vague ideas unless a person is being compltly honest and telling you outright just how depressed or happy they are feeling ... but body language is still much more affective. even hearing the tone of voice.
( wow no ones going to read this.)
Moving on, about moving on. I'm over him end of story im contemplating someone else ... but i don't think it would work.. and i hate revealing to much because i dont really want that person to even have much of an inkling as to whether it is them or not. I'm also not even sure if i actually like this person or i'm just infatuated with the idea of falling in love or just having a boyfriend. I do know the difference between being flattered and actually having feelings ai've been ther etwice with two different guys in the past month... but idk i'm done talking about this only time will tell ....*rolls eyes*
on the subject of this relationship on general kinda suck. if i am to have another on anytime soon it needs to be compltly healthy i need to being having fun and be able to feel ... liberated. i need someone who i can be myself with who i can go out and do somethign that with anyone else would be compltly boring but with that person it would be one of my best memories ... i'm sure that makes sense to someone. =\
oh well none of this matters anyway
concerning other issues I've been grounded. It's not a horrible punishment i've just had to be a suck up and do some extra chores nothing to strenuous at all. Not being able to go online i've noticed i've had a lot more freetime. there were a few moment where i was craving to check this and myspace and now that i've had my fix ... ive realized this is the most pointless creation known to man.
there is so much more to do. that sit at the computer and whine about the little bullshit problems you have. Yes ... i admit i've complained a bit on live journal ... only when i refuse to complin about an issue of mine to anyone person. and thats a part of the reason for having such things. But it is in my opinion that many of us have taken this over board. i hate to sound unsympathetic despit how cynical i've been latly but i just can't stand much more of this drama,and i only can hope that people in college and (as my parents call it) the real world understand that you can deal with your problems in more mature ways.
i sound quite conceited. i hate to make my self seem like i know exactly what i'm talking about. Obviously i don't ive just been observing the most recent outburst of drama and realized how easily most of thses issues could have been avoided if certain people involved in said drama could juast .. grow up.
in another post i mentioned ignorance and stupidity being two major downfalls and its true not just myself but ... possibly for most people. we are all ignorant about something .. we cant possibly retain enough information at this age to be great philosophers of life. ( and when i say information i mean that in general terms including situation which you learn from also known as experience lol) We don't know much about the world or ourselves or others and this ignorance causes conflict. i supposed because many of us are not inqusitive enough we cannot learn about the things we are ignorant about and thus cannot possible avoid such situations .. but then laziness is the problem and not ignorance.
it is my supposition that there are simply to many factors that are involed to completly pinpoint the cause for drama but i do strongly belive that two mojor factors are ignorance and stupidity. emotions are also highly involved but it is very hard to control emotions ... we can ignore them .. which is not always healthy ... or we can train ourselves to stop feeling altogether which is also very unhealthy ... so emotions as a factor is totally chaotic depending on the situation and cannot be avoided in a healthy manner .... i may be compltly wrong in this assumption but all the same its just an opinion.
This is why i say i hate being called emo ... emotions vary from situation to situation and for the most part i see myself as a very laid back, calm individual. Other have also supported this statement without my ever having to ask them. so to tell me that im being outrageous and out of line because i happen to be alittle upset is in itself outrageous and outof line esspecially when this drama happens online where thigns are so impersonal and dissociative that emotions cannot be properly read aside from exclamation points caps and a few emoticons.
how can you properly tell how a person is feeling you can make assumptions but you cant hear their voice see there excitment pain desperatness. you have no idea of defining the degrees of any emotion you only have vague ideas unless a person is being compltly honest and telling you outright just how depressed or happy they are feeling ... but body language is still much more affective. even hearing the tone of voice.
( wow no ones going to read this.)
Moving on, about moving on. I'm over him end of story im contemplating someone else ... but i don't think it would work.. and i hate revealing to much because i dont really want that person to even have much of an inkling as to whether it is them or not. I'm also not even sure if i actually like this person or i'm just infatuated with the idea of falling in love or just having a boyfriend. I do know the difference between being flattered and actually having feelings ai've been ther etwice with two different guys in the past month... but idk i'm done talking about this only time will tell ....*rolls eyes*
on the subject of this relationship on general kinda suck. if i am to have another on anytime soon it needs to be compltly healthy i need to being having fun and be able to feel ... liberated. i need someone who i can be myself with who i can go out and do somethign that with anyone else would be compltly boring but with that person it would be one of my best memories ... i'm sure that makes sense to someone. =\
oh well none of this matters anyway