I have recently learned that my views on love are somewhat different, so, as always, take my opinions with a grain of salt. The physical actions people can do for you and give you are more an aspect of attraction and compatability. In my eyes, these two things have little to nothing to do with love. Love is pure emotion. It is a spark or a tie to another person, whether that person is family, friend or SO, it does not matter. Love is love. I personally would like to believe that the spak is spiritual, but I am more than willing to admit that it could also just be a simple chemical reaction. Sometimes you love a person for who they are and sometimes you love a person despite who they are (and often its the same person). I love my dad, but often don't like who he is. We just aren't the same person. I love my friend Rik, but the gods know we've gotten in a few spectacualr disagreements and fights. I love my ex, but she is an ex for a reason. Love simply IS, without regard to compatability, attraction or anything else. If the other stuff is there, great. If not, then you still cant help but love the person. I'm done rambling now.
I think that is one aspect that my Tech part has a problem with at times. The undifinable part to love. The one with out reason and with out boundries or rules. That is something that I try to just accept for how it feels and pushes me to do things. However the Tech tends to scan all reactions that I have or actions that I attempt to make sure I am... still of my own mind?.... still in control?... not doing something wrong?.... not messing up the feeling?... that one is a very problematic one, the fear of messing up what I already have or taking the wrong step forward and breaking everything or pushing it back. I understand that the love you speak of is something that is... suppoose to be.... To try to control or filter or measure or structure such love is "wrong" in many ways. Still you statments are helpful cause the make me think of new things, remember old things. Talking is good. Finding people, more so time, to talk is hard.
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