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church tonight was good. we didn't have a lesson, but we had lots of fun just being teenagers and acting crazy, and then we had some great praise and worship time. normally when i say we had great praise and worship time it means i cried my eyes out. but tonight was different. i just sat and talked to God in a way that i normally don't. as though he was right there, like i was talking to my best friend. and it was amazing. i was just one of those times that i sit in silence in smile. not because someone said something funny, or because i was happy to see someone, or any other thing that normally would make you smile. i simply sat and smiled because i felt like it. because God gives me joy, because he is so good, and i could just sit still and feel his goodness, and smile in innocence like a child. because i wanted to smile--whether i had a "noticable reason" or not. ya, God is just plain awesome. i want to feel as close to him and as excited about him the rest of my life as i have in the past two days. i can't wait to grow closer to him, and to become more and more like Christ. i want to make him the focus of all my relationships, of all that i say and do. i want to sit around on saturday nights talking about God and his glory when most people my age are out partying or sitting around doing nothing. i want to be excited to go hang out with my friends because i know that when i'm with them we will focus on God, and that we will be the magnificent people he created us to be. this is what i want my life to be. i feel like i'm at a turning point---and i really hope that it's true.