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those cowtail candies are simply delicious...you know the caramel outer layer then the white creamy stuff in the middle...mmm mmm mmm sure lifts up one's mood.
i already talked about this on my myspace but livejournal has always been closer to my heart when it came to me venting about my feelings.
i've been contemplating a lot about things as graduation is approaching about the last 3 years of my life...overall i can honestly say its sucked. Seriously i'm not kidding the past 3 years have been the crappiest so far of my life. The only source of happiness i ever really gotten is from blanton. There are plenty of things i could try to blame for my unhappiness..maybe not being social enough and meeting new people but then again that was never my intention when i came to school..i never wanted to get caught up in that "party" scene. I didnt want to do clubs cuz i was always doing a full load at school and working during my free time. so i dont know what to blame and i shouldnt point fingers, but i've just been blah these 3 years.
So i'm looking ahead to the future..the next 5 years to be exact of what i want to do and where i want to be. i know you cant plan your life like that cuz unexpected things could happen but i'm doing it anyway cuz im crazy like that. I do know that within the next 2 years I plan to stay at my job unless some better one comes along, finish my MBA, and get married...thats a given. But after those 2 years are up I'm looking to pack up and leave this state for good. I hate this state..i've hated living here the moment i got here and its time for me to move on. Luckily i have a supporting mate who is willing to go anywhere with me...gotta love those free spirited artists. I have a few possible places of where i want to live...definately the west coast would be awesome..unfortunately its hella expensive. California would be my ultimate dream but i know thats a place where all i could do is keep dreaming. So i'm thinking Washington eventhough thats just as expensive....maybe Arizona....again expensive...but its out west and thats where i'm always guarenteed to be happy. We were also thinking of North Carolina..the weather is fairly nice....real estate is cheap and there are plenty of major cities for me and blanton to get jobs.
Overall I guess i'm being psycho in my thinking but its how i feel and how i felt for quite some time now. I guess the theme is moving on
i already talked about this on my myspace but livejournal has always been closer to my heart when it came to me venting about my feelings.
i've been contemplating a lot about things as graduation is approaching about the last 3 years of my life...overall i can honestly say its sucked. Seriously i'm not kidding the past 3 years have been the crappiest so far of my life. The only source of happiness i ever really gotten is from blanton. There are plenty of things i could try to blame for my unhappiness..maybe not being social enough and meeting new people but then again that was never my intention when i came to school..i never wanted to get caught up in that "party" scene. I didnt want to do clubs cuz i was always doing a full load at school and working during my free time. so i dont know what to blame and i shouldnt point fingers, but i've just been blah these 3 years.
So i'm looking ahead to the future..the next 5 years to be exact of what i want to do and where i want to be. i know you cant plan your life like that cuz unexpected things could happen but i'm doing it anyway cuz im crazy like that. I do know that within the next 2 years I plan to stay at my job unless some better one comes along, finish my MBA, and get married...thats a given. But after those 2 years are up I'm looking to pack up and leave this state for good. I hate this state..i've hated living here the moment i got here and its time for me to move on. Luckily i have a supporting mate who is willing to go anywhere with me...gotta love those free spirited artists. I have a few possible places of where i want to live...definately the west coast would be awesome..unfortunately its hella expensive. California would be my ultimate dream but i know thats a place where all i could do is keep dreaming. So i'm thinking Washington eventhough thats just as expensive....maybe Arizona....again expensive...but its out west and thats where i'm always guarenteed to be happy. We were also thinking of North Carolina..the weather is fairly nice....real estate is cheap and there are plenty of major cities for me and blanton to get jobs.
Overall I guess i'm being psycho in my thinking but its how i feel and how i felt for quite some time now. I guess the theme is moving on