so sad...
I wonder if anyone can explain this to me...why is it that I give everything that I am to everyone and get nothing in return? It's not even that I'm looking for something in return...maybe a little respect. What I'm not looking for is to be treated like shit. I cant even explain to you how many guys treat me like shit. I honestly dont think I'm that bad of a person. Maybe I'm doing something wrong, but seriously...if im doing something wrong, or i really am that bad of a person please let me know so that I can wake up from this hell of being nothing but shit on by guys that I've done nothing but cared for. (with the exception of maybe a few) I just dont understand and its really upsetting me. I'm about to give up with all this because I really feel hurt inside. And most of all, its so horrible because above all I feel like I'm losing a friend...
My own lil personal shrink called me...Chris, who I havent talked to in forever called from Nevada. He gave me so much advice about the situation and I'm so grateful (thanks hun...i love ya and miss ya bud!) You're a great friend, even if we're ten million miles apart! Call me soon! And then after that I talked to Evan for a lil while, who also listened to me babble on about my problems (I just hope that I was as good a listener as he is) But seriously, if you guys are reading this I just want you to know that youre both amazing friends...and I think that the best thing a friend can do for me is just listen to me when I need to talk and not tell me that I complain too much...so thank you both, I love you guys!
Alright, thats enough for tonight. It's now 3:30 and I'm still up writing in this thing...thanks for listening, it means more than you know.
xoxo Nicole xoxo
My own lil personal shrink called me...Chris, who I havent talked to in forever called from Nevada. He gave me so much advice about the situation and I'm so grateful (thanks hun...i love ya and miss ya bud!) You're a great friend, even if we're ten million miles apart! Call me soon! And then after that I talked to Evan for a lil while, who also listened to me babble on about my problems (I just hope that I was as good a listener as he is) But seriously, if you guys are reading this I just want you to know that youre both amazing friends...and I think that the best thing a friend can do for me is just listen to me when I need to talk and not tell me that I complain too much...so thank you both, I love you guys!
Alright, thats enough for tonight. It's now 3:30 and I'm still up writing in this thing...thanks for listening, it means more than you know.
xoxo Nicole xoxo