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well today was very interesting and fun. but i really dont feel like typing it all in right now so maybe ill do that later lol
lets just say i have neve seen ppl climb a tree like thing to get to an island LMAO
i love my friends..
and to comment on lauras last update...
laura that was an awesome thing you said, and i couldnt agree with you more! i love you!
and about the whole true friends thing...i for one beleive that, i feel that if you can sit and cal someone your true friend then they will be. so friends fight, lose contact or maybe just do different things in their lives, i can almost garentee that they wont forget eachother.
anyways im going to vent on stuff relating to lauras update..
i sometimes wish i was a little kid again. why? i miss the life of not having to go through pain, fights, and just plain drama. when your kids you dont care about things like that. when they walk outside they see the sunshine, and blue skies. they play, laugh and smile all the time. i wish i could say i do the same. as a 16 year old girl, i can walk outside and remmeber the attacks , wars, storms and killings. i can say that i dont always like myself, and sometimes dont like the thngs i do or say. but like others have said, its my mistake, my choice. JUST like laura, i know thre are many people out there and maybe even reading this who have hated me for differnt stuff i have done, or still do. yea so ive made mistakes in the past, the key word there is past. its done and over with i cant go back an change it and if i could im not sure if i would or not. i am who i am for a reason, and no one can take that away from me. i dont try to be someone else, i dont to live up to anyones expectations. thats just not me. if someone doesnt like me for the clothes that i wear or the friends that i hang out with, or even the guys that i like. who cares? not me. its not there life its mine. and just like everyone else, i only have one life to live. why life it a way that i dont want to?
i hear alot of people talking about their futures, college and all that. i love thinking about the future, planing it out for myself just to see what it could be like. say what if i wnt on with dancing where could i end up? julliard? or at a local dance studio just having my fun. would it really matter the difference? not to me. i dont need the best out of stuff, i just want the best for myself.
i love my friends, every one of them. yea i have alot of ppl i talk to in many different groups, but i can honestly say that my best friends and my closest friends are the ones ill never lose. i hold each friendship close to my heart.
i hate the word regret. what does it stand for? and what should it stand for?
should we always look back on our lives and all the mistakes as regrets?
i dont think so.
i dunno if i can say ive regretted anything, cuz what good would that do? because maybe at that time and place, it was something i wanted to do.
dont try to forget your past even if you hate it just like i do. its still MY past, cant change it, cant go back to it. but its there.
my childhood, i couldnt have grown up with a better sister, even if we fought, or dissagreed or said we hated eachother, i knew she was there for me. and that was a feeling ill never lose. i look up to my sister or more ways than you could imagine. i learn alot from her, even when i dont want to admit it. i dont thnk i could have gotten through the past 3 years without her.
live each day as if you could never do it again
dream as if it would always come true
sing, (no matter how bad you may sound) with a voice all your own
dance like no one is watching.
and love like you've never been hurt.
i just wanna say thanks laura. you really made me think. in a good way of course. i love you so much and thanks for always be there for me!! your the best! : )
OH YEA!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HEATHER MARIE!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!
im glad were really close again, your always there and you always know when something is wrong, and you can always find a way to make me feel better. i hope you had a great day!! im glad i could share it with you!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALYSE!!! you have been my best friend for what almost 3 years? i love you so much. we can get through anything together! good times we share! i hope you had a great birthday! and im glad i got to share it with you!
well thats all for now...damn thats alot! lol
ill update later on my day!
adios
.....y.o.u.....p.r.o.m.i.s.e.d....
......i.....m.i.s.s.....y.o.u.....
lets just say i have neve seen ppl climb a tree like thing to get to an island LMAO
i love my friends..
and to comment on lauras last update...
laura that was an awesome thing you said, and i couldnt agree with you more! i love you!
and about the whole true friends thing...i for one beleive that, i feel that if you can sit and cal someone your true friend then they will be. so friends fight, lose contact or maybe just do different things in their lives, i can almost garentee that they wont forget eachother.
anyways im going to vent on stuff relating to lauras update..
i sometimes wish i was a little kid again. why? i miss the life of not having to go through pain, fights, and just plain drama. when your kids you dont care about things like that. when they walk outside they see the sunshine, and blue skies. they play, laugh and smile all the time. i wish i could say i do the same. as a 16 year old girl, i can walk outside and remmeber the attacks , wars, storms and killings. i can say that i dont always like myself, and sometimes dont like the thngs i do or say. but like others have said, its my mistake, my choice. JUST like laura, i know thre are many people out there and maybe even reading this who have hated me for differnt stuff i have done, or still do. yea so ive made mistakes in the past, the key word there is past. its done and over with i cant go back an change it and if i could im not sure if i would or not. i am who i am for a reason, and no one can take that away from me. i dont try to be someone else, i dont to live up to anyones expectations. thats just not me. if someone doesnt like me for the clothes that i wear or the friends that i hang out with, or even the guys that i like. who cares? not me. its not there life its mine. and just like everyone else, i only have one life to live. why life it a way that i dont want to?
i hear alot of people talking about their futures, college and all that. i love thinking about the future, planing it out for myself just to see what it could be like. say what if i wnt on with dancing where could i end up? julliard? or at a local dance studio just having my fun. would it really matter the difference? not to me. i dont need the best out of stuff, i just want the best for myself.
i love my friends, every one of them. yea i have alot of ppl i talk to in many different groups, but i can honestly say that my best friends and my closest friends are the ones ill never lose. i hold each friendship close to my heart.
i hate the word regret. what does it stand for? and what should it stand for?
should we always look back on our lives and all the mistakes as regrets?
i dont think so.
i dunno if i can say ive regretted anything, cuz what good would that do? because maybe at that time and place, it was something i wanted to do.
dont try to forget your past even if you hate it just like i do. its still MY past, cant change it, cant go back to it. but its there.
my childhood, i couldnt have grown up with a better sister, even if we fought, or dissagreed or said we hated eachother, i knew she was there for me. and that was a feeling ill never lose. i look up to my sister or more ways than you could imagine. i learn alot from her, even when i dont want to admit it. i dont thnk i could have gotten through the past 3 years without her.
live each day as if you could never do it again
dream as if it would always come true
sing, (no matter how bad you may sound) with a voice all your own
dance like no one is watching.
and love like you've never been hurt.
i just wanna say thanks laura. you really made me think. in a good way of course. i love you so much and thanks for always be there for me!! your the best! : )
OH YEA!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HEATHER MARIE!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!
im glad were really close again, your always there and you always know when something is wrong, and you can always find a way to make me feel better. i hope you had a great day!! im glad i could share it with you!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALYSE!!! you have been my best friend for what almost 3 years? i love you so much. we can get through anything together! good times we share! i hope you had a great birthday! and im glad i got to share it with you!
well thats all for now...damn thats alot! lol
ill update later on my day!
adios
.....y.o.u.....p.r.o.m.i.s.e.d....
......i.....m.i.s.s.....y.o.u.....