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I feel so insignificant. Hardly anything seems to matter anymore, but at the same time every little thing gets analyzed.
Everything is being torn apart. Especially relationships. Mostly ones with people that I would die for.
I can't figure out what I want, and that's the most frustrating part of all. I'm at a dead end, in a rut if you will, and whenever I have to make a decision, I decide to make the decisions that will hurt me the most. If it's deciding between something I know I shouldn't do or just walking away, I decide to do whatever it is. It's become an obsession to do these horrible things, yet I hate it at the same time. How can I hate these things so much, but still enjoy it all the same. I suppose regret would be the best way to describe it.
I'd like everyone to make an anonymous comment about something you've done and totally regret after the fact. Think of the worst thing possible. We'll both benefit from it, you'll get something off your chest, and I'll know that I'm not totally alone. I need this you guys, so please oblige.
Everything is being torn apart. Especially relationships. Mostly ones with people that I would die for.
I can't figure out what I want, and that's the most frustrating part of all. I'm at a dead end, in a rut if you will, and whenever I have to make a decision, I decide to make the decisions that will hurt me the most. If it's deciding between something I know I shouldn't do or just walking away, I decide to do whatever it is. It's become an obsession to do these horrible things, yet I hate it at the same time. How can I hate these things so much, but still enjoy it all the same. I suppose regret would be the best way to describe it.
I'd like everyone to make an anonymous comment about something you've done and totally regret after the fact. Think of the worst thing possible. We'll both benefit from it, you'll get something off your chest, and I'll know that I'm not totally alone. I need this you guys, so please oblige.