Too many emotions :/
Why can I not be content with my situation?
I have amazing friends, a good boyfriend, a wonderful family yet ... I'm not happy.
No no, I'm not depressed.
As much as I hate to say this, my problems lie with the boyfriend.
I've been dating Brandon for a week. But already, I've seem to have lost my spark. I look at pictures of me and Brandon and I just ... don't like it. I used to love looking at pictures of me and Joe. I don't know what to do. I like him but at the same time, I don't really think he's the ONLY one I like. :/ I have to admit, I miss Joe. I talked to him the other day and he's seem to grown up in so many ways. It was a good talk - we haven't talked in a couple of months which I think was good for us. But I miss him. I miss our relationship. I want it back. But with a mother like mine, how the hell do you explain that without her completely flipping out? Oh wait, you can't. :(
He wants to go running with me. I really think it would be a good idea. We both need to work out and hopefully if he gets into running enough, he will quit smoking all together. That would be amazing. :)
I think I'm going to need to break things off with Brandon. I shouldn't be dating someone when my mind is also thinking about a couple other people. No, Joe isn't the only other guy I'm thinking about.
My friend Joey. We have these moments when it feels like there is flirting in the air. We were talking last night and I was saying how sometimes, I get lonely (guy-wise). He then said how he would of never guessed it. He also mentioned that if we're 45, unhappy, and not married yet, we're getting married. Um ... can we say confusing? I think he'd be a blast to date. I guess there's just something about Brandon that I thought would work but ... isn't. I'm just gonna have to wait till AFTER his formal. Hm, way to end a special night. :/
Whoever said first loves die hard ... was so right.
I don't know if I'm just not over Joe completely like I thought I was or if maybe there really is something. Obviously, cheating is probably the worst way to find out if we were meant for each other but maybe that's what was needed. Or maybe I'm just rambling and making excuses for his actions ...
I just miss him. I'm pretty sure though that everything would be the same. The kisses, hanging out, everything ...
Sorry Vicki but I really think I might need to be a nun. I'm just way too confused for my own well being. Booooo! :(
Did I mention finals are next week? AWESOMEEE! More stuff to cram into my poor little brain.
Someone please save me. :(
I have amazing friends, a good boyfriend, a wonderful family yet ... I'm not happy.
No no, I'm not depressed.
As much as I hate to say this, my problems lie with the boyfriend.
I've been dating Brandon for a week. But already, I've seem to have lost my spark. I look at pictures of me and Brandon and I just ... don't like it. I used to love looking at pictures of me and Joe. I don't know what to do. I like him but at the same time, I don't really think he's the ONLY one I like. :/ I have to admit, I miss Joe. I talked to him the other day and he's seem to grown up in so many ways. It was a good talk - we haven't talked in a couple of months which I think was good for us. But I miss him. I miss our relationship. I want it back. But with a mother like mine, how the hell do you explain that without her completely flipping out? Oh wait, you can't. :(
He wants to go running with me. I really think it would be a good idea. We both need to work out and hopefully if he gets into running enough, he will quit smoking all together. That would be amazing. :)
I think I'm going to need to break things off with Brandon. I shouldn't be dating someone when my mind is also thinking about a couple other people. No, Joe isn't the only other guy I'm thinking about.
My friend Joey. We have these moments when it feels like there is flirting in the air. We were talking last night and I was saying how sometimes, I get lonely (guy-wise). He then said how he would of never guessed it. He also mentioned that if we're 45, unhappy, and not married yet, we're getting married. Um ... can we say confusing? I think he'd be a blast to date. I guess there's just something about Brandon that I thought would work but ... isn't. I'm just gonna have to wait till AFTER his formal. Hm, way to end a special night. :/
Whoever said first loves die hard ... was so right.
I don't know if I'm just not over Joe completely like I thought I was or if maybe there really is something. Obviously, cheating is probably the worst way to find out if we were meant for each other but maybe that's what was needed. Or maybe I'm just rambling and making excuses for his actions ...
I just miss him. I'm pretty sure though that everything would be the same. The kisses, hanging out, everything ...
Sorry Vicki but I really think I might need to be a nun. I'm just way too confused for my own well being. Booooo! :(
Did I mention finals are next week? AWESOMEEE! More stuff to cram into my poor little brain.
Someone please save me. :(