just a note....and a bit of a vent i spose if u would call it that
Well here i am in my new house.
i really like it here, but im missing jarrad.
jarrad and i hooked up after i came back from holidays= thats the navy guy i was seeing for breakfast and coffee a few times. It has been so nice.
He is so good with kieran,last night dad and my sister were over and he took it in his stride seeing my family for the first time. He comes in and gives me a kiss, and then goes and picks up kieran and gives him a cuddle, i absolutely feel my heart melt at that.
anyway we had a really good time with a few glasses of wine with my dad and sister, and then they all went and we tried putting kieran to bed. Anyway jarrad said for me to let him lie down with kieran, kieran liked it but wouldnt go to sleep so he gave kieran a nice belly massage, and that still wouldnt happen, so jarrad went to the chemist on request from me coz we couldnt find the condoms anywhere.. and when he got back kieran was still awake, so jarrad suggested taking him to bed with us, and it was so nice jarrad holding us with kieran in between.
The thing is jarrad lives an hour away from me, so we hardly catch up and it is starting to get me down. I enjoy his company so much when he is around, but between us both working different hours, we only get to see each other once sometimes twice a week if im lucky.
I think back how i loved being on my own just a few weeks ago, but its amazing the connection i have with jarrad when we are around.
the thing is i sometimes feel depressed when we are only talkin gon the net. i hate talking to him on the net :(
anyway the good news is he wants kieran and myself to meet his parents, that should be nice. and he is calling me his girlfriend and says we are in a relationship. I feel so secure when he is here, especially the way he is towards with kieran and i, but when we dont see each other i get a little insecure i spose.,..i spose its just that im not used to being with such an awesome guy.
i better get going and ring him, i just wanted to get it out here without bringing it out on the phone, one thing faye - kevins mums said when she met him yesterday was - dont let that one get away - and i dont want to, i just wish i could see him at least 2-3 times a week, life would be absolutely perfect then.
yes i do admit to myself that i am falling for him, quite hard, but there is no way im letting him know it...i kinda have a feeling he is too....he keeps playing this faith hill song to me that has in the lyrics and he sings "im so in love with you"
anyway should get my pc back soon
goodluck for the final 5 weeks of ur pregnancys tash and bek, u are both in my thoughts.
i really like it here, but im missing jarrad.
jarrad and i hooked up after i came back from holidays= thats the navy guy i was seeing for breakfast and coffee a few times. It has been so nice.
He is so good with kieran,last night dad and my sister were over and he took it in his stride seeing my family for the first time. He comes in and gives me a kiss, and then goes and picks up kieran and gives him a cuddle, i absolutely feel my heart melt at that.
anyway we had a really good time with a few glasses of wine with my dad and sister, and then they all went and we tried putting kieran to bed. Anyway jarrad said for me to let him lie down with kieran, kieran liked it but wouldnt go to sleep so he gave kieran a nice belly massage, and that still wouldnt happen, so jarrad went to the chemist on request from me coz we couldnt find the condoms anywhere.. and when he got back kieran was still awake, so jarrad suggested taking him to bed with us, and it was so nice jarrad holding us with kieran in between.
The thing is jarrad lives an hour away from me, so we hardly catch up and it is starting to get me down. I enjoy his company so much when he is around, but between us both working different hours, we only get to see each other once sometimes twice a week if im lucky.
I think back how i loved being on my own just a few weeks ago, but its amazing the connection i have with jarrad when we are around.
the thing is i sometimes feel depressed when we are only talkin gon the net. i hate talking to him on the net :(
anyway the good news is he wants kieran and myself to meet his parents, that should be nice. and he is calling me his girlfriend and says we are in a relationship. I feel so secure when he is here, especially the way he is towards with kieran and i, but when we dont see each other i get a little insecure i spose.,..i spose its just that im not used to being with such an awesome guy.
i better get going and ring him, i just wanted to get it out here without bringing it out on the phone, one thing faye - kevins mums said when she met him yesterday was - dont let that one get away - and i dont want to, i just wish i could see him at least 2-3 times a week, life would be absolutely perfect then.
yes i do admit to myself that i am falling for him, quite hard, but there is no way im letting him know it...i kinda have a feeling he is too....he keeps playing this faith hill song to me that has in the lyrics and he sings "im so in love with you"
anyway should get my pc back soon
goodluck for the final 5 weeks of ur pregnancys tash and bek, u are both in my thoughts.