Land of Contradiction
*Sigh* *refrained scream* *strong desire to bash head against table, wall, brick structure, anything solid that could crack open this stupid ass melon that sits on my shoulders*
i'm so tired of these damn contradictions. "i don't want to put miles on the car so i don't want to drive it anywhere." but then, "i don't want to walk [four blocks] in the rain so drive me to work." and regardless of where i pick her up, bellevue, eastgate, or issaquah, she is always late and i'm the one at fault and the one who receives her bullshit wrath of anger. she wants me to help pay for her car but then she tries to take it away from me like it's hers only and i contribute nothing to it. you know, it's always this bullshit and quite frankly i'm tired of it.
she told me this weekend that she is grateful for me and that i mean a lot to her. she continued by telling me that she doesn't tell me or show me enough. she has that right in the center of the bullseye! she also told me that she was lucky to have me in her life. of course, all of this came after i agreed to help her finance her new car- amazing how those instances can bring such gratitude, and be so quickly forgotten within days.
she wants me to do all this work for her, do her damn jobs for her and i do... with little gratitude from her.
you know, i don't even care right now. i'm too frustrated to even vent.
*BLAH!!*
i'm so tired of these damn contradictions. "i don't want to put miles on the car so i don't want to drive it anywhere." but then, "i don't want to walk [four blocks] in the rain so drive me to work." and regardless of where i pick her up, bellevue, eastgate, or issaquah, she is always late and i'm the one at fault and the one who receives her bullshit wrath of anger. she wants me to help pay for her car but then she tries to take it away from me like it's hers only and i contribute nothing to it. you know, it's always this bullshit and quite frankly i'm tired of it.
she told me this weekend that she is grateful for me and that i mean a lot to her. she continued by telling me that she doesn't tell me or show me enough. she has that right in the center of the bullseye! she also told me that she was lucky to have me in her life. of course, all of this came after i agreed to help her finance her new car- amazing how those instances can bring such gratitude, and be so quickly forgotten within days.
she wants me to do all this work for her, do her damn jobs for her and i do... with little gratitude from her.
you know, i don't even care right now. i'm too frustrated to even vent.
*BLAH!!*