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well the realization of death is a harsh one benny has been dead for more than a month but still i cant grasp five minutes without him. i dont know what to do or what to think. i feel as though ive gotten weaker and weaker since his death. im drained of life every day. closer and closer to the inevitable. but in the same since closer and closer to benny. i will see you sooner or later benny, but i am stuck in a world without a voice a world without a choice. strange i died at the same time he did but im still here. what kind of trick is god playing on me. well you know what fuck you....fuck you. i am not something to be played with and i am not some fucked up experiment that you can create and torture. kill me beat me bu8t you know what i win.... I WIN... because i know your game and i know the truth of it all. the truth that i dont matter and that you will all die. and that i am dead.