Jun 20, 2012 06:00
k
quote from entry in 2005
"once i exploded and thus being unable to write this essay because of the pressure the course outline and i have placed upon myself became too extreme i subsequently re-entertained the idea of dropping out of university and entering some generic non-rewarding unsatisfacto...no. grades do not entail vocation david, not when you wish to work in a creative field dominated by derivates and requiring minimal qualifications (thereafter granting minimal economic reward however), and thus don't worry about the grades, remember, university is for you to learn, not necessarily for you to own. you have a lot of years months left and therefore have no reason to attain some great level of analysis now, so long as you can create well. at semesters end, the only unit that will start to mean somethin gis theory and practice of creative writing, this you should try to own. but other units are other units and pass like all other units and eventually do not keep you alive tomorrow that is oxygen to study oxygen and water and blood and stuff so you can stay alive and stuff ok? silly. but written here means it wasn't written in my shit essay unless i just accidentally copied and pasted from there to here or here to there (my average has been dead for one semester people, and thus this essay has the status of being my first essay since last semester (theoretically, ignoring the deferral) which is capable of breaking the slump i am in and is therefore very important to me. but i haven't been able to do it. i need a miracle, i believe in the ramones. no i don't, but i am having mars volta cravings."
guess what?
it applied for the last two weeks. the exact same thing.
with the bits about "don't worry about analysis" just focus on creative writing.
seven years on, same shit.
but
unlike seven years ago when one year later i droppt out
today
i hand in my last assessment piece and get my shitty little degree
my BABABABlacksheep
majoring in the philosophies and literatures
with
might i add
that theory and practice of creative writing unit completed yonks ago with a hd, well owned
and other things owned since then
so yeah
not amazingly tricky article to read this one
but
tis an achievement i am sharing with myself and anyone else who cares.
POST
BASHING MY HEAD IN CAR ACCIDENT
POST ACCIDENT
POST COURT
POST GUILTY
POST CRIMINAL
POST UNABLE TO WRITE ANYTHING
POST UNEMPLOYMENT
POST UNABLE TO COMPLETE ANY UNITS
POST ONSET OF MORE AND MORE WHAT COULD BE TERMED HALLUCINATIONS AND DELUSIONS
POST PARANOIAC PHASE
POST EVERY FUCKING THING, including some of the things above a second time around
i graduate.
=^_^=
and now, i move on. either to something new, or more of the same, or whatever. buts its a move.