change?
im slowly getting used to be alone. napansin ko lang yan ngayong nandito ako sa mall. naglalakad magisa. tumitingin-tingin sa mga bagay-bagay ng magisa. this place brings back so much memories. so much that i almost hate being here.
iba pa rin talaga ung may nakakasama ka. iba pa rin ung may nakakausap ka tungkol sa kahit anong bagay habang naglalakad. ung tipong kahit anong pagusapan nyo eh ok lang, dahil hindi ka natatakot na magsabi ng kahit ano sa kanya. oo, may mga nakakasama naman ako, pero iba kasi ung meron kang, sabihin na nating "significant other". im not just talking about someone whom you can have a romantic relationship, but a friend. and not just a friend, a best friend. it has been a month or so since it happened, but i remember it like it was yesterday. malungkot pa rin ako, pero thanks to god, im not wasting anymore. kinakalimutan ko na lang ang nararamdaman ko sa pamamagitan ng paggawa ng kung ano-anong makakapagpasaya sa akin. bili ng kung ano, punta sa kung saan.. lahat, wag ko lang maramdaman ang lungkot. dahil pag kaming dalawa na lang ng lungkot ko ang magkasama, lalo akong nalulubog sa kalungkutan.
honestly, im looking for someone right now who can be my "significant other". or, at least, im trying to look for someone.
nakakatawa, dahil kapag wala na ang isang bagay sa iyo, maiisip mo kagad, "malalaman mo lang ang halaga ng isang bagay kapag wala na sya sa iyo," kasunod non, "nasa huli ang pagsisisi." di ko tuloy malaman kung maaasar ako o hindi eh. on the other hand, the event taught me to value the ones that i still have. to show them how much i love them before again, it is too late. i haven't actually been able to tell all of them how much i love them, im still trying to muster up the courage to do so. i can only hope that god will allow me to do it before, they, uh.. leave me.
eto ako ngayon, may binili na namang bagay na makakapagpalimot ng lungkot ko. just bought fhm's may issue and marilyn manson's antichrist superstar cd(pirated). something to listen to, something to read. i just remembered, i already have a couple of books to read. hannibal and ayn rand's atlas shrugged. the latter was lent to me by my officemate.
haha! eto yata ang pinakamahaba kong post ah! hehehe..
tatapusin ko pa nga pala ung design ko na tattoo.
ahh.. so much things to do, so little time..
iba pa rin talaga ung may nakakasama ka. iba pa rin ung may nakakausap ka tungkol sa kahit anong bagay habang naglalakad. ung tipong kahit anong pagusapan nyo eh ok lang, dahil hindi ka natatakot na magsabi ng kahit ano sa kanya. oo, may mga nakakasama naman ako, pero iba kasi ung meron kang, sabihin na nating "significant other". im not just talking about someone whom you can have a romantic relationship, but a friend. and not just a friend, a best friend. it has been a month or so since it happened, but i remember it like it was yesterday. malungkot pa rin ako, pero thanks to god, im not wasting anymore. kinakalimutan ko na lang ang nararamdaman ko sa pamamagitan ng paggawa ng kung ano-anong makakapagpasaya sa akin. bili ng kung ano, punta sa kung saan.. lahat, wag ko lang maramdaman ang lungkot. dahil pag kaming dalawa na lang ng lungkot ko ang magkasama, lalo akong nalulubog sa kalungkutan.
honestly, im looking for someone right now who can be my "significant other". or, at least, im trying to look for someone.
nakakatawa, dahil kapag wala na ang isang bagay sa iyo, maiisip mo kagad, "malalaman mo lang ang halaga ng isang bagay kapag wala na sya sa iyo," kasunod non, "nasa huli ang pagsisisi." di ko tuloy malaman kung maaasar ako o hindi eh. on the other hand, the event taught me to value the ones that i still have. to show them how much i love them before again, it is too late. i haven't actually been able to tell all of them how much i love them, im still trying to muster up the courage to do so. i can only hope that god will allow me to do it before, they, uh.. leave me.
eto ako ngayon, may binili na namang bagay na makakapagpalimot ng lungkot ko. just bought fhm's may issue and marilyn manson's antichrist superstar cd(pirated). something to listen to, something to read. i just remembered, i already have a couple of books to read. hannibal and ayn rand's atlas shrugged. the latter was lent to me by my officemate.
haha! eto yata ang pinakamahaba kong post ah! hehehe..
tatapusin ko pa nga pala ung design ko na tattoo.
ahh.. so much things to do, so little time..