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Listening to some third eye blind. reminds me of good memories of Lee. It took me awhile to listen to this album- it just proves my point on just how powerful music can be. I finished my 92A paper and then I totally changed my position for my edu ref paper. I wrote a whole new outline and met with my prof. I was yet again off the point of the whole paper- its so hard. I must think more about structure rather than the details for this paper. We brainstormed and figured out how to get my point but within the systematic ways of education reform.
candy,meatball and I watched "eternal sunshine of the spotless mind" tonight. I love and hate that movie. The first time I saw it I ran to Lee and told him to 'never erase me' haha. It's trippy to see that movie some time later when you are in a different place in life. It takes on a whole new meaning and you also view it much differently.
I dont want to go to work tomorrow. I never want to go to work. eh. After I have to begin my paper. Oh the pain my brain will be going through.
Oh how I want to be myself. I mean I am - but never again do I want to lose myself in someone so that I dont show you I am. It's self inflicted pain and it lowers your self worth. I think that's why Lee always emphasized to me to love myself more....wow i dont want this entry to be about him. lol.
In other news.......I can't wait to go home. I feel like I am being suffocated here in santa cruz. I mean dont get me wrong Ive been having a good time- it's just that finals are coming and I need a break and I wont get to go home till Dec 10th. I just need to stick in there and finish out well. Santa Cruz-the actual city feels like such a little bubble.....not to mention being on campus is even more of a fish bowl....I will make it through....
man my backs been hurting...yes.i know lisa.."would you like some cheese with that whine?" hehe.
candy,meatball and I watched "eternal sunshine of the spotless mind" tonight. I love and hate that movie. The first time I saw it I ran to Lee and told him to 'never erase me' haha. It's trippy to see that movie some time later when you are in a different place in life. It takes on a whole new meaning and you also view it much differently.
I dont want to go to work tomorrow. I never want to go to work. eh. After I have to begin my paper. Oh the pain my brain will be going through.
Oh how I want to be myself. I mean I am - but never again do I want to lose myself in someone so that I dont show you I am. It's self inflicted pain and it lowers your self worth. I think that's why Lee always emphasized to me to love myself more....wow i dont want this entry to be about him. lol.
In other news.......I can't wait to go home. I feel like I am being suffocated here in santa cruz. I mean dont get me wrong Ive been having a good time- it's just that finals are coming and I need a break and I wont get to go home till Dec 10th. I just need to stick in there and finish out well. Santa Cruz-the actual city feels like such a little bubble.....not to mention being on campus is even more of a fish bowl....I will make it through....
man my backs been hurting...yes.i know lisa.."would you like some cheese with that whine?" hehe.