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i don't remember the last time i had a day that sucked as much as today. after a weekend of trying to study over the dim of partying in my house, I have retreated to the library to try and find peace, though the girls giggling and gossiping behind me are not making it easy. told a friend a story and he got mad, won't even admit that it could possibly be true, even if it isn't, though I don't know why she would lie. but mistakes happen, I guess. mom told dad all that i told her in confidence, all that it took me four years to tell her. can't help feeling betrayed and embarrassed and unable to hide from it anymore. glad I didn't tell her everything. can't stop crying lately, and to top it all off, lost two papers 'cause my computer is a piece of shit. hope this coffee keeps me awake, i know i will get no sleep tonight. mike is mad cause i am neglecting him, which is really fair, cause 1) I have more to do than I could possible handle right now, I took on way too much and don't know what to do about it, and 2) that's how he treated me for much of our relationship. i wish those girls behind me would realize that the library is not their sorority house and shut the fuck up, cause now i have to get back to work.