lonliness
hmmmm. . .two entries in one day.
i feel out of place at western, i recognze no one, i have no friends on campus, i feel so far ahead of the kids in my class. I feel as if i've experiened more, lived more, learned more about life and human nature in my twenty-three years than a majority of those in my classes.
what does that say about a person or actually my class as a whole when their biggest experience of diversity of being exposed to people diiferent from themselves is when they left their predominately white comunity and school to come to western which by the way is 82% caucasion. i feel out of sorts, i know i am here to learn, and that these classes will teach me a lot, but i have no one with which i can compare stories or experiences with. Granted it's still early and i've yet to talk to everyone in my class but that first day left me feeling lonely.
so strange and different from my experiences and life in east lansing. i know that these kids exist on all campuses, but shit they were all around me wednesday night, i felt like the bearded lady at the circus when i told my stories, so much anxiety.
i was lucky in east lansing to have had a family with which i was so close to. i met all of you and we became friends almost immediately. granted i owe a lot of that to my darling krissy who helped me and made me feel comfortable in coming out of my shell. you are all so unique and amazing.
i just need to find my place here on campus. i need to go to a party with friends and get drunk and feel free of all this anxiety. i need for this lonliness to leave.
i feel out of place at western, i recognze no one, i have no friends on campus, i feel so far ahead of the kids in my class. I feel as if i've experiened more, lived more, learned more about life and human nature in my twenty-three years than a majority of those in my classes.
what does that say about a person or actually my class as a whole when their biggest experience of diversity of being exposed to people diiferent from themselves is when they left their predominately white comunity and school to come to western which by the way is 82% caucasion. i feel out of sorts, i know i am here to learn, and that these classes will teach me a lot, but i have no one with which i can compare stories or experiences with. Granted it's still early and i've yet to talk to everyone in my class but that first day left me feeling lonely.
so strange and different from my experiences and life in east lansing. i know that these kids exist on all campuses, but shit they were all around me wednesday night, i felt like the bearded lady at the circus when i told my stories, so much anxiety.
i was lucky in east lansing to have had a family with which i was so close to. i met all of you and we became friends almost immediately. granted i owe a lot of that to my darling krissy who helped me and made me feel comfortable in coming out of my shell. you are all so unique and amazing.
i just need to find my place here on campus. i need to go to a party with friends and get drunk and feel free of all this anxiety. i need for this lonliness to leave.