nvm
i take it back, what i said. Im so proud of Jon and what hes doing. I guess i was selfish and wierd when i freked because he didnt have all his attention to me, i read his essay, and im proud and wish him nothing but the best of luck, even if it involves him letting go of me and me letting go of him. ill always be here for him, and ect. but idk, a window just opened and i think i see things better now